FEELINGS {ON GOING}

C~9 [ DISTANCE]

After that night I distance myself to everyone. Especially HIM. Only Dave knew the specific reasons and stories behind my burst out of crying caused by my PAIN hidden for a long time.

Its been a week since that happened.
As of now I am staring at my ceiling and kept on thinking of  way's AGAIN
To distance myself to him and the tropa. I just felt like I wanna be alone.

Tomorrow's Monday and were gonna have our last regular class for a review of each subject because the examination is near and after that recognition & Vacation na.

Our practice for the recognition event we did it earlier in sched because we don't have time practice after the examination is recognition the next like after 1 day of that.

Knock!- knock!*

Someone Knock on the door kaya napalingon ako sa direksyon ng aking pintuan sa kwarto.

"Who is it?" I asked pertaining to who's outside my door.
" Ma'am may naghahanap po sainyo kaibigan nyo daw po" sa boses palang alam ko ng si ate sally iyon inaasar nanaman ako sa kakatawag sakin na ma'am nagmumukha akong matanda.

Tinungo ko ang pintuan at binuksan upang batukan si ate sally.

Ngunit iba ang sumalubong saakin.
Ang iniiwasan ko.

Tumingin ako sa likod ng taong iyon at nakita ko si ate sally ang peace sign pa. Alam niyang badtrip ako ngayon Alam nya din na ayaw ko makita ang pagmumukha ng best friend ko pero hindi niya alam ang rason nun tanging si Dave lang ang nakaka alam.

Binalik ko ang aking paningin sa taong nasa harap ko at hinarap ito na blanko ang aking mukha walang emosyon for short.

Nakakunot ang noo nito mukhang ito pa ang galit at confuse tsk! Siya ang ang di ko maintindihan eh!

"What?" I irritatedly ask him. Eh kasi naman lingo na lingo at kakagaling palang namin nina mommy sa simbahan kaninang umaga! Binubwisit na ko! Gusto pa yata neto madagdagan kasalanan ko eh papamurahin pako sa inis!

Tinulak niya ako ng mahina papasok ng kwarto ko and he pinned me at my door now I'm freaking stuck! Both of his hands  are both on my sides and I am between him He leaned more closer at tinitigan ako nilabanan ko din ang kanyang titig hindi pwedeng mahalata niyang kinakabahan ako ngayun. Mas lalo akong kinabahan ng
Bumaba ang tingin niya sa labi ko.

Umiwas ako ng tingin pero natigilan ng inilapit niya ang kanyang mukha sa aking tenga " Let's Talk please" he  whispered soflty.

Napahawak ako sa door knob nanghina ang tuhod ko at nagtaasan balahibo ko. Takte! Mahina talaga ako pag sakanya.

Tinulak ko siya ng mahina ngunit hindi pa din ako nakawala. Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay like he's waiting for my answer.

"Fine, Just let me go" I defeatedly said back to him.
Tumango naman siya a let me free from those uncomfortable position of us i felt like my breath stopped for seconds.

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Were currently at the balcony near the swimming pool.

Walang nagsasalita ni isa sa amin.
So I broke the silence between us.
"What is it all about?" I ask as I broke the ice between as.

He heavily sigh " What's wrong?"

"You...."I whispered but he can't clearly hear what i just said.

"Nothing" I innocently said na parang walang pake at alam sa mga sinasabi niya I just kept on staring at the beutiful overview of our pool. Ayoko lumingon baka maulit nanaman yung kanina manghina nanaman ako.