FEELINGS {ON GOING}

C~11 [ The Worst]

Aya's POV

It's been days since I was Diagnosed'

"How are you?"

"I- I'm" My voice was trembling

"It's okay' Stay Calm... Breath calmly... then let it all out... Good" She was so calm and her voice was soft while saying those words'

" T-thank y-you" She helped me to calm down' Because its AGAIN attacking me...

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" How is she Doc?"

I heard a sigh " Based on my observations' she's having panic attacks earlier-"

"What caused those?"

"It is usually symptoms of Anxiety disorder' That can lead to depression..."

"My baby...." I heard my mom's crying

I can't look at them' so I was just looking straight to the wall like I don't care, I'm being a burden... a lot.

I felt ashame... guilty... I've been a good girl?......why is this all
h-happening?....

" Your daughter needs to under go a Daily Psycotheraphy' I will not prescribed her a medication drugs due to her age, But I will encourage and thought her to under Go herself onto a self help' No one can help her none other her self....."

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I spent half of my Summer vacation in New york to Go through a lot of treatments and theraphy....

So far I was getting better than I expected my situation would be'
But still need to follow all the prescribed needs of mind to be followed in order for me to get better... and cured my ill self.

"Now, you have my permission paper that allow's the patient to travel back in Philippines' But I will recommend someone there to monitor' Also you can call them if there are concerns or emergencies about the patient"

" Ayabeans! Mamimiss kita! Muwaahhh!"

Jerk! He really is!

" I can't breath "

" Oh sorry ayabeans..."

"Jerk ass" I whispered

"Hey!"

"Ano?" Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay

" Ah wala-mwuahh"

"Ugh! Laway mo slimeyyyyy yak!" Pinahid pahid ko yung kamay ko sa pisngi ko para maalis kunyareh ang germs! Kanina pa kasi to eh ginagawa akong bata! Hinahalikan ako sa pisnge kasi daw mamimiss ako! tapos may paiwan pang laway yak eww!

Nagspray pa ako ng alcohol sa kamay ko at dinamay ko na din pagmumukha niya.

Cough!* Cough!*

" HAHAHAHAH matik sige asarin mo pa ako"

"Loko kang bata ka jusko kung di lang talaga ikaw favorite ko eh!"

"Kasalanan ko bang ako lang ang may kayang makisama sayo?"

" Awtss gegeh"

" Foul! HAHAHHA" sabat ni kuya na mas nag pasimangot kay lio the lion.

"Sige ha papalampasin ko to dahil lab kita" Napangiwi ako sa kacringyhan ng pinsan ko jusko! Sarap batukan!

" Kulang ka lang sa tulog kuya" tinalikuran ko na ito at tumungo na sa aking kwarto para matapos ko na ang pag ayos ko ng aking mga gamit para sa pag alis namin bukas.