it sucks when it feels like the things you used to be good at are no longer your strengths. whether it be a sport you once excelled in or a talent like singing or painting that you have been lacking in recently. it just feels like what was once cathartic is now more stressful than the stress you're trying to cope with.
i used to love to sing but after years of smoking and vaping as well as being forced to quit choir, I feel like i've lost my touch. my voice annoys me, the fluctuation and cracks, and my limited range as well as my breath control and overall tone. i just want to hear my voice and love it again.
i still write music for myself and i do try to sing them as i put them to music, but in my head, the song will always sound better.
it sucks that the nasally sound of my voice upsets me when i hear it recorded, especially since i used to write, record, and upload my original music to youtube. i haven't posted in years and it's all because of my own self-loathing. i hate that i hate myself so much. it really puts a damper on my self-care.
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