say you won't let go

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chapter title : the boom gang

summary : chuuya finally foes to his long awaited concert, the reward he received from fulfilling higuchi's reuqest. also, chuuya starts to really think he is in love with his sugar daddy, which is a bad thing.

but his heart never follows his brain, does it?

notes : this is a pretty short chapter and sorry for the late updates! also, angst is coming up soon ;)) but since im new to writing angst, i just hope to shred a tear or two from you all by the end of the angst period

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"why the fuck are you here?" chuuya's face scrunched into a deep frown once he take a good look at who was approaching nearer towards him. he finally had gotten himself into 'The Boom Gang's concert, currently clutching onto his new-bought beat shakers and LED lights they sold at the front of the stadium.

he was in high spirits before- a certain someone came. "why not, chuuya? you don't have to pretend. i know you love my accompany!" the infamous port mafia boss really had the guts to just stroll into the stadium nonchalantly, completely ignoring the gazes upon him, hugging chuuya so tightly that he couldn't breathe properly.

"wow, dazai-san! it's an honor to meet you." the teenage boy standing on the other side of chuuya definitely squealed when he noticed it was dazai that strolled in, looking up at the brunette with star-shaped eyes. "i have heard so much things about you."

"ATSUSHI! YOU SAID YOU WONT SAY ANYTHING!" even under dazai's tight hug, chuuya still manages to glare at his friend, before receiving the most absurd response he ever gotten - him sticking out his tongue.

dazai seem to be delighted by atsushi's words. without fully letting go of chuuya, he extends one of his arm to shake atsushi's, giving him the gentle smile. "is that so? that's nice to hear, atsushi-kun. looks like you have been taking care of our chuuya pretty well." now, the fiery glare was shifted to the brunette.

"i agree, dazai-san. chuuya can be quite a bit difficult to handle sometimes." he feigned sheepishness with his awkward laugh but chuuya sees through the act. he knows the grey haired boy wasn't even ashamed or guilty for what he said, which made the ginger even more pissed.

is he really that difficult to handle? he's pretty sure he behaves more decently than dazai. also, when is dazai going to let go of him? he doesn't know when butterflies actually start clouding his stomach, making him slightly flustered, feeling strangely warm.

"oh shut up. i'm not such a hassle to work with if you're going to compare me with him." chuuya makes sure to point at dazai with a stern finger which cause chuckles to bubble out of his throat.

chuuya doesn't know why this is suddenly happening but he feels warm and happy after hearing those strings of laughter? since when has such strange feelings, reactions come after him? he knows, he suspects he might have fallen for dazai. but part of him still wishes, denies that it isn't real.

after all, dazai is his sugar daddy. they are not suppose to have intimate feelings, not suppose to have any attachments. but he's here, probably having all of them. he bend the rules, he broke the promises the requests he set for himself before this whole 'business' thing came about.

he use to have so much confidence in reassuring tachihara, his friends that he wouldn't be affected much but- he isn't that confident now. dazai is a busy man. he's someone who seeks for such pleasure just for fun. nothing of such sort is permanent. which makes chuuya fear.

he wants to continue to hold on desperately, to grasp on whatever they can have - their relationship, their time together. simultaneously, he thinks he shouldn't do that. in the end, he knows he has to let go eventually, to break apart from all these connections. the more he longs, the more he is going to get hurt.