-Obsessed || Bang Chan-

Chapter 18

"...n....Y-..Y/n!" I heard my name called out which caused me to jolt up on the bed.

Chan was calling me whilst knocking the door. I checked the time and it was literally midnight.

'Just few hours ago we said our good nights, so what happened now...?'

Without wasting any time I opened the door to find nervous Chan in front of the door fiddling with the hem of the hoodie he was wearing.

"Oh Chan...what happened? Do you want something?"

CHAN'S POV

Y/n went to her room to sleep when I decided to read a novel which I was reading since few days. I decided to finish reading it now... I kept reading for about two hour or so. It was tragic but a book with happy end. The couple in the book faced many problems but eventually they stood with each other. That's when I realized how much I was missing Heejin. I closed the book and placed it on the table. I stretched my body which wasn't moved since two hours.

"I miss you." I mumbled and leaned my back on the couch. I sighed remembering all the time I spent with her.

I've never dated someone else other than Heejin maybe that's the reason why I'm so stuck up on her. The novel I read just now was tragic but it had a happy and fair end...How will I end up? Happy or lonely? I love her with my whole heart and soul but she just turned back over me? Am I that bad for someone to end up a bond of eight years this easily? That too six years spent in a relationship. Am I someone who shouldn't be listen to even once?

I truly regret on my actions but no one ever tried to know my back story about how I got caught up in this drugs world. It was clearly not intentional but no one ever understood me. Y/n is the only one who told me how much I am improving... She's just some girl who is now my friend and I don't want anyone to replace Heejin...

Heejin is my first love and I wish she will return. I will wait for her. On our fourth anniversary as a couple, we promised not to leave each other, but she did...I should be mad that she left right? But here I am crying while missing her. The moment she placed the promise ring on my hand which was on her finger before...I lost everything...She turned around and never returned.

I didn't realize when tears started flowing from my eyes. So pathetic of me to cry like this. It was so hard for me to forget Heejin that everytime I think of her, I drug myself to keep her thoughts away from me and sometimes to have her imaginary figure in front of me...and now I felt the same. I realized my heart beating fast in my chest.

"Chan you promised Y/n you won't do that." I convinced myself but my urge was getting far from controlling it. I didn't want to do anything that would cause Y/n a problem but what about my cravings now.

"Should I ask Y/n? Maybe she could do something. But it's too late. She would get mad and worried if I intoxicate myself again." Thinking this I got up and started walking towards Y/n's room. While climbing the stairs, I felt exhausted. That's what happens when I crave for drugs.

"Y/n...Y/n Y-/" I called after knocking her door.

She opened the door half asleep. I regret waking her up now.

"Oh Chan...what happened? Do you want something?" she asked rubbing her eyes.

"I- Y.. Y/n..."

"Chan what happened huh? Wait first get in we will talk after that." I followed her led to her bed and sat on that. She sat in front of me.

"Now tell me what happened-"

"I'm craving Y/n.." I said in a low tone. I heard her sighing. My heart felt a pang, thinking that she is tired of this shit. Anyone would be.

"Chan I thought you saw a ghost or something and was afraid to sleep alone." she said and giggled. I snapped my head towards her and watched her laughing.

'Then I realized how beautiful she's looking even after being half asleep. Her giggles are cute too. Her big doe eyes shined and she scrunched her nose while laughing. Her messy bangs and bed hair made her extra cute. She don't act much feminine which makes me feel comfortable around her unlike other girls whom I have met before. They all talk in baby voice which makes me cringe. Y/n is just cute and tiny beside me. The other day I felt the same when she smiled at me. She holds affection in it. Whenever she smiles, her cheeks looks softer than anything else. Even while scolding me when I don't take care of myself, I could only see her caring and worried side. She's selfless. Now as well I woke her up in the middle of the night, I prepared myself to have good scolding or whines from her but here she is laughing and smiling. She is different. I could tell her parents must be happy wherever they are, to have her.'

"Mr. Bang Chan are you there?!" I heard her saying in a loud voice and bringing me back to earth. I widen my eyes.

'What was I thinking? Why? How? I never thought of any girl other than Heejin in this way and now-'

"W-what?"

"Do you sleep with eyes open?"

"Why would you say that?"

"I thought." she said and giggled to which caused me to do the same.

"So you are craving?" she changed the tone into more serious.

I quietly nodded.

"Chan...you are doing great trust me." she stated. "You are improving do you realize that? See when I first saw you at the hospital, you were so violent that I thought I would never ever get close to you, but see now I am sitting beside you. Do you know why?"

"W-why?"

"Because you proved that you want to change, to me and yourself. That's the reason you just walked to me when you felt urge of getting intoxicated. I am so proud of you Chan." I don't know how but her words were making me forget my cravings.

"I am really improving?"

"Yes you are. Don't worry I won't let your cravings get beyond controlling. But every time you feel slightest urge, run towards me just how you did right now, I will always help you out okay?"

"Thank you Y/n-ah..." I said and held her hand.

"No need to say that. I think you are fine now."

"Yes I am." I stated the fact. I became normal, the moment she started speaking.

"Good." she said and ruffled my hairs.

"Aish. Don't do that am I a baby? No I am not." I said.

"Whatever you say but you are my baby." she said and I got flustered. Her too when she realized what she said. I quickly looked away.

"I guess I am fine now. I should go and you too go back to sleep. I'm so sorry for waking you."

"It's fine Chan-ah." she said and we smiled for one last time before I got out of her room and straight away went to sleep.

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Again I lost track of length of the chapters 😖

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