delinquent

chapter ten

Heather

My hands above my stomach as i switch my eyes from time to time to the camp slip and into the ceiling, every time I tried to do something else it just won't get done. What Moe said just keep on struck on me over and over again it won't stop, she makes me over think, everything she says and do around me, controls me.

My heart felt crushed watching her leave, it's like i am making a fool of myself again trying to avoid what I really feel.

She told me in the rooftop that what she told me that night doesn't mean anything, but did stare into her eyes that night, it felt different. When she lend me her jacket, the moment I thought of her i knew I have to run to her.

When she held my jaw and blew her smoke right into my mouth, made my drunk self unconscious of what I am doing, but my feelings were being honest that time.

I ran away and throw her to Noah, hoping my feelings will ease up but eventually it didn't, a part of me wanted to tell her that I did felt the same way that night, i was just scared.

I knew i wasn't stable enough to handle a relationship at the time, my mom cheating and leaving made things a lot more complicated, i have to pick up my dad drunk from the couch everytime I get home and would sit down at the table alone to stare at the empty table for the past 9 months.

Not until he recovered, it took him almost a year and a half to go back to his feet. I was glad that he did, but the moment I was able to get back to my life, she was gone. That easy i felt like, i did lost my mom and I also lost a friend.

Lucy, she was in a phone call with me but she placed me on hold for awhile. The librarian called her to take a few books out the shelf, it was a Saturday and she was in duty at the library for extra income.

"You up for girl's night out tonight?"

It's been so long since we both hang out alone, and i felt getting a bit movey today.

"i am in, 6pm?"

"yeah blondie."

Lucy told me she was going to be busy, so she hanged up the call and I was back alone in my empty room. My curtains still closed even though it was already 3pm in the afternoon.

I got up to the shower by 5:30 and took a casual outfit out my closet, a black fitted shirt and a black skirt with checkered lines alongside with my doc martens. Just a sling bag to fit my phone in and a few cash.

I was gonna put an extra eyeliner but then i heard Lucy's car honk in front of my house, so i ran outside and met Lucy who was in the driver's seat, my dad on the other hand has his hands on his waist as he forcefully gave me a nod.

Knowing he didn't want me to leave the house even again, but he said he trusted Lucy more than he trusted me with anybody. So I got into the passenger's seat and clicked my seatbelt on.

"You wanna get a little crazy tonight?"

Lucy glanced at me before shifting her gear, and finally were on the road and I was still wondering where we will hang, then she pulled in front of a night club and gave me a shrug before helping me out.

"Never been in one?"

I shook my head no.

"You're going to love it here!"

Breathed into my mouth hole as the music started to invade my ears, it was loud and the entire majority of the people are dancing in the middle. My body stiffens as me and Lucy were caught in the middle.

"Do you think we should get drinks first?"

I asked Lucy, and she nodded yes.

My first glass become second, third, fourth....then I couldn't count them anymore as i tried to keep myself awake while I watch Lucy from afar dancing with a random guy. I was in the middle of passing out when i heard a tap infront of me.