Bad Decisions (Part 1)

Chapter 9: Spring Break

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The term finally ended last week and I finally had a break. It has been a long year so far, but I managed to get through it. The classes I had been taking had gone smoothly, but it was still challenging and very different from high school.

From the group, everyone had plans to travel outside of the city, except for me. I had planned to work so I could afford college next year. Today, I was returning textbooks so I gathered my textbooks and grabbed my keys, and made my way to the door when I got a call from Alex. I found this to be strange since he never called unless we were meeting as a group. I answered the call.

"Hey. What's up?" I tried to sound casual since things had gotten weird between us. I had started to catch on to feelings for him even though I knew it was wrong and there were many reasons why it was a bad idea to even dream about dating him.

"Can you meet me?" Alex replied from the other end. With a confused look on my face, I reply with:

"Sure. I'm on my way to campus so if you want to meet there."

"See you there." he hung up almost after he responded. I wondered what he wanted to meet up about, but I had a very good feeling it had something to do with the conversation we had the other night...

2 nights ago

I want to let go, but it's hard. She's all I've ever loved. I leave the message open for some time. Alex was venting to me through my art account. I felt like it was time to finally tell him who I was and how close he was to me. I fiddled with my phone before replying.

Maybe letting go will help you see who really loves you. Seen. I was hoping he would catch on to what I was trying to say, but at the same time, it was too risky. Seen. I expected him to leave it on seen but once I saw the bubble with 3 dots, I panicked.

I don't know anyone who does. I sighed and closed my eyes. I was deciding to tell him how I felt which would lead to telling him who I am. I had a great friendship with him in person and I was afraid he was going to see me differently but mostly disappointed.

I felt my phone vibrate a couple of times. I was getting a call from Alex through Instagram. My hands trembled as I switched between the decline and accept buttons. If I answered, he would recognize my voice immediately. Instead, I let the phone ring until it stopped.

Trust me. I know someone does He replied immediately with

It's you, isn't it?

I turned my phone off and fell asleep.

I was almost positive he was going to meet about that. I had indirectly admitted I had feelings for him, so if he found out I was the owner of the account, he'd know I, Lia, had feelings for him.

I paced to the bookstore and returned my rental textbooks. I handed the cashier my school ID when I felt a buzz in my pocket. I pull my phone out of my shorts pocket and see a message from Alex.

I'm in the cafeteria on the third floor.

Meet you there

I put my phone back in my pocket and finished my return before making my way towards the cafeteria. I use the stairs to buy time to work up the courage.

When I arrived on the third floor, I saw him immediately on a table furthest away towards the wall. He was the only other person in here other than the cooks and cashiers on the first floor. My palms get sweaty and my heart starts to pound as I approach him, but I make no sign of it.