The Lonely

Nachtmusik

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Eren's POV
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I am awaken by Levi's horrific sobbing. When did we even fall asleep? It doesn't matter anymore, Levi's crying is getting even worse, he's starting to scream. I check his eyes and they're shut tight, must be from some nightmare he's having.

"NO GET OFF OF ME I'M SORRY I AM SO SORRY!!!" He screams, flailing his limbs which results in me getting a scratch under my eye. Damn, that stings. I grunt and try to control him. "NO STOP DADDY IT HURTS PLEASE!!!"

"Levi, hey Le- Ouch!" He smacks my nose hard enough to make it bleed while still whimpering. I ignore the pain and blood and focus on waking him up. "Levi, listen, hey listen to me!" I try raising my voice to get his attention. He has stopped screaming now, but he is still pushing against me. I wrap my arms around him to pin down his own arms and I set him on my lap. He calms down and I shake him until he's awake. Levi looks at me with wide eyes, tears still streaming down his face.

"Eren, Eren, oh my God, Eren," He clings to me, apparently not noticing the blood coming from my nose, as he muffles his sobs with my chest. "Don't ever leave me alone with them again, please don't leave me. I can't lose you. Father used to..... He used to...." He can't even finish his sentence before he starts sobbing again. Nothing needs to be said for me to know what happened. I hug him tighter to me and listen. Levi needs to get this off of his chest.

"It was just Mother, Father, and I. Mother was always terribly sick, she had a disease. According to my Father, because of this she was terrible at 'taking care of his manly desires'. She was always so kind and gentle to me. I loved her. My Father on the other hand, he was a horrible person. H-he used to come into my room at night. He used to call it 'examination' because he was a doctor, but it was more than that. He touched me in places no child should ever have touched. When I was older, it got worse. My body was more developed and, since I looked like Mother, I was the most suitable candidate. He raped me, as soon as I hit puberty. Every month, he would rape me. I was so glad to hear that the bastard died. What hit me so hard was that that son of a bitch had taken my poor Mother with him. She knew what he did to me, but whenever she stood up to him, he would beat her. She was already so weak and frail, she became pretty much paralyzed. My God, did I love her. She became paralyzed trying to protect me from that bastard. Once she was gone, I had no one left besides Hanji and Erwin. I am so glad I met you. You're the first person I've ever told that whole story to. Thank you for listening." His eyes never met mine during the whole story, but at the end his grey eyes look up to me. I hope the adoration and love is evident in my eyes, because he deserves it.

"I hope it's not too early to say this, but I really do love you. I adore you. I admire you. You deserve all the affection and love in the universe. As long as I can provide it for you, of course," I grin at him and kiss the top of his raven hair. He looks at me incredulously.

"You don't think I'm used? You don't think I'm disgusting?" I shake my head at him.

"It's never the victim's fault. No matter what happened, it is NEVER the victim's fault. Your father knew full well what he was doing was wrong. Nothing you could ever do was worth the emotional and physical pain he put you through. I am so proud of you for moving on with your life and not dwelling on the last. But whatever happened to you, nothing could make me love you less. So just lean on me when you need someone, okay?" I kiss his soft, thin lips. He smiles at me, then his expression becomes horrified. Oh, he must've noticed my nose and the cut under my eye. He gingerly reaches out to it and I hiss as it stings from the contact.

"Did, did I do this to you?" He says shakily. I shrug and smile at him.

"You didn't mean to, you were fighting your father in your dream. It's okay, I know it wasn't intentional." I say confidently. He looks at me skeptically, before leaving our embrace to get a first-aid kit. It only takes him a minute before he is sitting cross legged in front of me with the kit. He becomes so absorbed with the task at hand, making sure to disinfect EVERYTHING on my face. The blood doesn't seem to bother him too much. I sit patiently as I wait for him to finish wiping the blood from under my nose and checking it to make sure it's not broken. He sighs in relief when he realizes it was only a nosebleed.

"I know I was only reacting to my dream, but my boyfriend got hurt in the process. That's on me, I'm responsible for your nose and your cut. Actually, that cut might scar." He frowns at the end of his sentence. I roll my eyes at him and pull him by his waist to sit on my lap. I lean my head so it's resting on his collarbone and I rub his back soothingly.

"I don't mind if it scars. If it does, it always means I have a reminder of you wherever I go!" He shakes his head at my goofy grin but he smiles too.

"You're a fucking dork." He snorts.

"But I'm your fucking dork!" I nuzzle his neck. It's silent for a few seconds before he speaks up.

"Yeah, you are," He says softly, running his fingers through my hair. I hum at the feeling and kiss his neck. "And I am so lucky to have you. Please don't ever leave me. Because I'll never be able to forgive you if you do. All my secrets, embarrassment, memories, happiness, and especially my heart, they're all yours. So if you leave, you take them with you." He warns, sweet but threatening.

"Good thing I don't plan on leaving then. You can have my everything, I won't share it with anyone else, I promise. Don't you ever leave me either, you hear me? Mikasa and Armin will kick your ass into next millennia!" I tease him. He nods but smiles, and kisses my forehead. I grin back at him, happy as a clam. Suddenly Levi starts looking around, I'm assuming to find something. "Hey what're looking for?"

"My phone, I was supposed to text Mikasa about how our date went and then help get Eyebrows and Coconut Head together. Speaking of which, you're helping me with the latter." I raise my eyebrows at him.

"Oh? Does Captain America have a thing for our little Armin-hammer?" I ask. This is going to be good.

"Yup. Everyone knows that the two of them like each other except for the two of them. So we're going to set them up on a date."

"How are we going to manage this? Those two put together are smarter than our whole school combined, how are we going to get this past them?" He smirks at me and grabs for his phone, pointing to it.

"We're going to use this. You're going to make plans to hang out with Armin at 6:00 pm tomorrow at the coffee place near the school. I'm going to make plans to hang out with Erwin at the same time and place. Thing is, neither of us are going to show up. Which just leaves the two of them by themselves with some extra free time. That way they'll never figure it out until they get there!" Holy shit I'm dating a genius. I grab Levi and kiss him full on the lips, causing him to blush and smile.

"You are a genius. I'll text Armin right now! You go text Mikasa and Erwin. This is going to be great!" I enthuse. My little baby (best friend) is growing up. We text the the details to the two soon-to-be lovebirds before return to watching movies and cuddling. I'm pretty sure I'm not leaving anytime soon. That's not a problem for me, the more time I get with Levi is better for me. I text Mikasa quickly, telling her I'm spending the night at Levi's. You know what she fucking texts back?

"Use condoms. Don't disturb the neighbors too much. Don't get too many hickeys. Be back in the next week."
God fucking damn it. I lock my phone and turn towards my short boyfriend, showering him with kisses and affection. He rolls his eyes but I know he loves it.

"By the way," He starts. "You're spending the night. If this nest is too uncomfortable for your back, we can sleep in my bed." I shake my head.

"This is fine. Though at some point, I am sleeping in your bed with you." I smirk at him. He cuffs my head and cuddles into my chest, his head on my heart and his left arm laying across my chest. I snicker and wrap my arms around his waist before closing my eyes and starting to sleep. Before I am fully asleep, I hear Levi faintly say three words, but I'm sure I'm making it up. We'll find out in the morning.