JJ Maybank Imagines

Health Class

tw: mentions of suicide and self harm

I walk into class, health to be specific. Nothing in jt ever bothered me, I mean we're all people so who cares?

My best friend JJ sits behind me. We usually spend class cracking sex jokes and passing notes. But today was different. I had a shit night with my parents and fighting and today we happen to be talking about suicide and self harm.

To most that may seem fine because that only happens to "other people. Not in my case. I tried to kill myself last may. Poor JJ was the one who found me half dead with blood and pills surrounding my limp body.

Let's just say ever since that it triggers me to talk about.

The second the long talk begins I immediately feel my heart rate increase. "hey it's ok" JJ leans over and whispers to me. "Mr Maybank leave the girl alone" our teacher scolds him.

My heart pounds and it feels like my throat is closing. This wasn't abnormal for me but it had never happened in class. I prayed to god that it'd all stop and this feeling would go away.

"do you know anyone who's tried to kill them self?" who the fuck asks that? Honestly in my opinion this class is messed up.

"I-I gotta go" I choke, grabbing my bag and rushing out of the room. I make my way to a different hallway before sliding down the wall in a puddle of tears. My knees come up to my chest and I continue to sob and try to catch my shaky breath.

I hear someone walk towards me and sit down next to me. When I feel their arms wrap around me and smell their shirt I know it's just JJ. "I got you it's ok" he whispers while rubbing my back. I cant even breathe let alone respond.

"shhhh, I'm right here. You're safe y/n" he continues whispering reassuring words. My body softly shakes as I cling to him.

Our teacher comes running over "come on back to class" she spits as I hide my face so she can't see. JJ ignores her and holds me tightly. "now."

JJ looks up "I'm kinda busy right now, this shit triggers people." he says, not even looking at her. The teacher scoffs and walks away.

I pick up my head and look at him. "I'm sorry" I croak. The blonde cups my face "don't be sorry bub" he smiles, wiping away my tears.

Despite us never dating we always had pet names for each other. Sometimes we'd hook up or make out for fun but never the mushy shit. Ok so we're basically dating but who cares.

"I love you"

JJ never said that. He had to really mean it to say it. "I love you to" I manage a smile and kiss his cheek softly.

I cuddle back into his side just trying to have the first moment of calm I've had in forever. JJ twirls my hair around his finger and presses occasional kisses on my forehead.

"I'm so happy to have you Jay"