Too Fat Sequel of Silence (5 SOS & Harry Styles Story)

Wedding But Where Is Michael

    ( Warning Will Contain Self Harming &  You Will Need Tissues While Reading)

               Today Luke and Ashton are getting married. Ashton has been coming to visit me. He is really nervous about today. Well that's what he told me yesterday when he came to visit me. I have been her for about 5 months now. In those months I did gain wieght.I am almost to my.normal weight.

            Calums is going to the wedding everyone is. I am waiting to see if I can go.Just sitting here waiting. Ashton said he would visit before the wedding and if they say yes I can go with him. I haven't heard from Harry. I don't talk about him.People say it's bad to keep things bottled up. I found away to fix that.

            I started to cut about a month after I got here. It helps me through what Harry did. Calum is Amazing and make me happy. But when I think of Harry I feel sadness. No one has realized that I cut. Because they don't really ask why I started wearing Luke's flannel he let be borrow. And since it's Black and red it's ok to wear. That and black ones are good.
  
              I hear a knock at my door. I  tell them to hold on. I put a new bandage on my wrist and put some bracelets on to cover it. Then I walk to the door and open it.

            "Hey Ashton. What did  they say can I go? Please tell me yes. Look I am all ready to go and everything. "I ask excited to see him.

       He smiles and nods a yes that I can go. I am so happy I hug him. He hugs back.I haven't been outside since the hospital. This is the first time. Hopefully they see how it's good for me and let me leave forever.

             "Come on let's go. And Michael their is media here so if you want you can go out the back." He says in a serious tone.

          "It's ok Ashton I can talk to them."I say to him as I open the doors out of the center. It's really bright outside and their are lots of flashes and camera's.

     "Hi Everyone I would like to say I am happy for Ashton and Luke. They are my best friends . Also as you can see I am getting better.This place does change people for the better. Now if you excuse me I have a wedding to go to." I say with a smile.

         Then we walk away from them as they are asking questions towards me. One pops out at me though. They ask if I heard Harry will be at the wedding and my thoughts to that. I turn and stop while Ashton grabs my wrist. I wince but shake it off with a light laugh.
        " Well look at this promise ring. I take my middle finger  up showing them. "I don't give a Fuck if he is there." Then I give a fake smile.
       My Ashton is pulling on my wrist and it hurts like he'll. All I can do b'day is smile while we walk. As we get in the car I pull my wrist away. Then feel blood on my hand. Shut! I sit down in the backseat and put my hand by my side.Thank god Calums is driving and Ashton is in the front seat. As we start to drive and they are talking I look at my wrist grab a red bandana and put it on my wrist to stop the bleeding. Fuck it hurts so bad. But thinking of Harry and how I am going to see him makes me squeeze my wrist and the pain hits and all of my pain goes away. And the bleeding stops. I clean it up put a new bandage thank god they are still talking.And put my bracelets back on.

         "We are hear Baby!I'm sorry for ignoring you I had to talk wedding details with Ashton."Calums says as they both turn and look at me. I smile get out of the car . Walking to the nearest bathroom.
              As I go there I see him. He walks over to me with a smile. Dam he looks so amazing. But he broke my heart. I look down as I start walking away from him. He grabs my shoulder and turns me around.
      
       "Michael your out. You look amazing as always. Hey you ok? What's wrong with your hand is it bleeding? Or are you pulling a prank?"He says and then starts talking again. " I  brought a date he is somewhere around here. I forgot his name again. Do you think Luke would mind if I go into a room with my date. You know show him a good time. I'm not in Love with him I mean who has time for that. Are you in love with Calum? Well I should go find my date.The wedding is going to start."
He says all this like it is nothing. Like he isn't talking to me.