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Oh nothing... Just wide awake thinking about cassidy.
Her smile. Her laugh. Her body. Her face. Her unborn child.
I'm high asf sitting outside but by myself now. The couples left to go have sex or something. I just can't help feeling attached to her already. When she isn't around I worry. When she isn't up under me I'm cold. I'm honestly still sitting out here because I know she isn't in my bed.... Now I don't want to sleep without her and it's only been 2 days.
I've never been this attached to anyone in my life. it's terrifying. I'm the kind of person who self sabotages and always thinks about what can go wrong and what I don't deserve . Will she up and leave ? Will she want to be on her own once she has her baby? Does she feel the same way as me? I need a hot shower to start my week off right.
Things are going to be slightly different now. It's no longer the weekend. During the week we are always on the go.. always. Our dogs will come back from their grandparents tomorrow. Yes they are our children and yes they have grandparents.
Me Alura and King have a couple shops together. She does hair both male and female as well as aesthetician and King cuts hair so it's that and a mix between all kinds of girly shit and male shit. Hell sometimes the men go and get facials. I think it's just because they like having that girl's boobs in their face. King deals with dreads and twists and all that and he has a girl that helps him when he doesn't have time to cut and do all that. I do tattoos and piercings and have a couple other side people that do the same.
Chris just got out of jail he was in there for about a year. But before that he was working with demari and I'm pretty sure he is going to continue doing that.
Demari and Chris were drug dealing before Chris went to jail. But they also work in construction. And they are damn good at it. They helped build our house. I'm sure Cassidy will adjust just fine helping wherever she feels comfortable . I hope.
I let out a deep breath before getting up and going towards my room. Probably going to be up all night.
I walked in my room and turned the light on.
"Cass... what you doin up ma" I said laughing a little, causing her to look up. She was sitting on the big bean bag with my blanket wrapped around her on her phone.
"I couldn't sleep so I waited for you. I was in the other room for a while but I like yours better so, here I am." She did jazz hands and we both started laughing.
"Did you shower already?" I asked and she nodded.
"Okay i'm going to shower then we gon talk about some things and we going to sleep alright?" she nodded and I nodded. before going towards my restroom.
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After I showered I did all my facial and hygiene shit I brushed my teeth and threw on some basketball shorts and a tee. I walked out the restroom and surely enough she was still in the same position but she had chips now.
"Cass" I called and her head popped up as she went to put more chips in her mouth.
She shoved them in her mouth before replying with a muffled "hm". "You finished or nah" I said laughing and she nodded smiling. She stood up and shook the bag of chips and pointed to the door still chewing indicating she was going to put them up. I nodded and she walked out of my room.
I got in the bed and put my phone on the charger and sat up with my head on the headboard and my arms above my head. I closed my eyes and just sat in the comfortable silence while I waited for Cassidy to come back.
I opened one eye when I felt her hop in the bed. I turned my head and she was in my face cheesing.
"Don't jump your gonna hurt toot" i mumbled after chuckling at this goofy ass grin she had on her face. lightly mushing her forehead she laughed before sitting up straight criss crossing her legs.
"So what do we have to talk about?" she asked tilted her head to the side.
"Later on today we start our busy week. We chill on the weekends but during the week we are on go most of the time. We have 5 Dogs they were just away at their grandparents. We all have work to go too." I said and she nodded.
"Okay you have the choice to come with me and lura so you don't have to be at home by yourself or you could stay here it's up to you okay?" i said and she yawned while nodding her head.
"Alright ma go to sleep" she wasted no time gently pulling me down and getting in the normal position she's been sleeping in for the past 2 nights.
She loves being little spoon.
She pulled my hand to wrap around her stomach and scooted as close as she could and put her hand over my hand and rubbed over it till she fell asleep.
