Pansmione One-Shots

Fire

Omg, it's unrequited love and angst! And is that falling with your best friend?! With a dash of love metaphors!

Many that know of Hermione Granger would say that she is as "Perfect" as they come. Well, of course, you would think that since she has faultless grades, dresses up nicely (Did you see her during the Yule Ball), is best friends with "The Chosen One", guys and gals and pals swoon over her, and she has confidence, she's "Perfect".

It's easy to think that she's "Perfect", but if you ask her two best friends, the people that have known her for over five (5) years, the ones she trusts her life with... She's a complete disaster at expressing and confronting her feelings and feelings in general.

Hermione is so book smart because she loves to study and work her hardest to be knowledgeable. She believes that if she works hard enough and is the best, people will forget that she didn't grow up in the magical world. That she would prove all of the people that said she would never amount to anything wrong.

While growing up, it was the same. Hermione was endlessly teased and bullied for being a "nerd", she never let the word get to her. Instead, she allowed them to fuel her desire to become more knowledgeable. All of the studying while Hermione was young never left much time to make actual friends and develop long-lasting relationships with any of the few that hung out with her.

Ron and Harry were the first best friends she had. Then Harry started "getting closer" to Draco, she knew they were already dating, Pansy and Blaise joined their small friend group, and Hermione became friends with all three of them.

She and Draco connected over books and, surprisingly, muggle films. Particularly romance and action ones.

(The six of them watched The Titanic together. All of them cried or had tears threatening to fall.)

She got especially close to Pansy. She found it incredibly easy to talk to her about her problems. When Pansy came to her for help, there would be a... warm feeling in her chest.

The first time she felt it. It was like a fire just starting out, not blazing but comforting in a sense. It stayed like that for a while until it didn't. She doesn't know when the fire got bigger. It just did. It was warmer and still comforting.

The sensation is confusing. A crush(?) as Ron calls it. Hermione's felt it before when she was younger and still in school in the muggle world. She acted on it and told the girl. Once she did, the girl's face turned to disgust. "You're a dyke," the girl said through a laugh. "No wonder no one likes you!" The words had been engraved in her mind. Despite her saying that she wouldn't let them get to her, those stuck. She learned that if she wanted acceptance, no one could know.

The flame kept slowly growing into an enormous wildfire. Six (6) months had passed since Hermione first felt it. The fire made it so very hard to look at Pansy. The hurt she feels as Pansy live on without knowing anything about how she feels.

She was desperate to get water in any way necessary. To feel that sweet relief of not feeling burned every time she saw her. But what is it that she's feeling? In the beginning, it was like a friendship though it felt like more. Love? It's a foreign feeling.

The fire slowly embedded itself in her thoughts and, she couldn't stop thinking about her. After that, it was her mouth. She wasn't able to speak about anything else.

Unsure of what to do, so she waits. She waits for the flame to die. She waits for Pansy to show signs that she likes her too. She waits for something, anything, to happen between them. 

Yes do the healthy thing and ignore your feelings! I'm sure it won't torment you like it did to me. And before you ask. Yes I am a lesbian.