Destiny [YiZhan FF]

Chapter 18 - Friendship Plus

EGO POV Yibo

After what happened between Zhan and me last night, I felt like I was freed. I could give free rein to my feelings. Even though I didn't confess my feelings to Zhan. It's still hard for me to do that. And after waking up this morning, I didn't know how to act towards Zhan.

I want to be with Zhan. But I still need time. Because a lot of things are still unclear to me. I still need to figure out how to solve my existing problems. Maybe I can find a way to combine the two. To be with Zhan and earn money to continue to support my parents.

So when I woke up, I wanted to tell Zhan that. But Zhan was no longer in the room. I went to see where he was and finally found him in the cabin with the bunnies. He was lying on the floor playing with two young little bunnies. When he noticed me, he asked me to sit with him.

Before I could say anything, Zhan said, "Because of what happened between us last night, I wanted to say something. It was really very nice and I enjoyed it a lot. I suppose by now you realize that I have feelings for you. And I also realize that you care about me, too. But I also know that you still need time. So give yourself time to think about what you want. I don't put any pressure on you. As you know, I have time. It's also okay for me if you don't want to repeat something like last night. And if you want to avoid me now, that's okay."

I just sat there for quite a while, watching Zhan play with these two little bunnies. I wanted to say something to his words. But there was a huge lump in my throat that made it impossible for me to say anything.

So I just sat there and waited until the feeling of tears coming as soon as I opened my mouth stopped and I could answer Zhan. My heart was so heavy because I love Zhan, even now, after so few days, so much that the thought of not knowing how to go on was totally killing me.

And finally after a few minutes, I also laid down on the floor and rested my head on Zhan's back. "I don't want to avoid you Zhan. I want to do something like last night, happily again. Preferably every day. And you're right, I do care about you. And you're also right about me needing more time. I really have a lot of things going through my head that I need to sort out first. But I hope that you can wait patiently until then. Because you are really important to me. And to be completely honest, I really hope we can pick up where we left off. I don't want things to get weird between us."

Zhan spun around and I was now lying with my head on his belly. He stroked my head and replied, "I'll wait Yibo. I know this is all complicated. And so take the time you need. And as for the other thing. Well, what do you say we agree on a Friendship Plus for now?"

"Friendship Plus? You mean we stay friends and have sex?"

"That's right. If you want, of course."

"Mmm, I agree."

"Then we'll keep it that way for now."

"Gladly Zhan." If this is currently the only way I can be with Zhan to give me time to find a solution for us, then I'm willing to try. Still, it didn't feel right. Because I have feelings for Zhan that I can hardly describe. I want to be with him more than anything. So, a Friendship Plus is more like a band-aid. But, it's better than nothing.

I crawled further up to Zhan and gave him a kiss. He smiled so sweetly again and wrapped his arms around me. We kissed each other for a few minutes and then played with his bunnies some more. 

At lunch time, we went to the dining room. I got a big steak and fries this time, while Zhan drank his blood. Somehow it doesn't bother me when he drinks blood while I eat normally. It's like it's perfectly normal for both of us. So I find it unnecessary that two of the servants sat down at the table again and ate with me.