A monk and his love

Love letter to a monk part eight

Yeshe my loving monk.

My wise teacher, my passionate lover my best friend. I ran to get you so you can see the finished sand mandala. I was stiff from all the dancing I did for you.  You were almost finished sweeping.

" Yeshe, my darling, you should see what the nouvices did!" I shouted. We held hands until he saw the sand mandala. "I am sure you've seen these many times but this is my favourite. But it's beautiful!"

When you saw it you had to agree. Come time to destroy the mandala, we kissed. While I was kissing you The scars on your face made you look more handsome. And I commented.

You held me closer to kiss me and I said not yet, they are just ready to distroy it.

"Like everything... nothing lasts forever not even the positive..."you said and I said "except for our love and this relationship" I saw a tear in your eye and I had one too.  We kissed again and the started fasting. Yet we couldn't abstain from eachother. We kissed and rolled to eachothers climax that night. After we made love you said that there going to be more meditative and spiritual love and sex. And the fact that we were fasting meant that we would be together all day.

"Do we stay here or where to do we go to do this?" I asked softly.

"How about that old ancient monastery that we been to the other day, we would meditate and be able to couple with out anyone to disturb us," you said.

"That's sound romantic yet eerie," I sad.

"I am taking you there because I am so deeply in love with you I want you to be safe," you said. You started to cry and I asked why. You said that no matter how much we love eachother that you did think you wouldn't see me grow old.

"Like everything... nothing lasts forever not even the positive..."you said and I said "except for our love and this relationship" I saw a tear in your eye and I had one too.  We kissed again and the started fasting. Yet we couldn't abstain from eachother. We kissed and rolled to eachothers climax that night. After we made love you said that there going to be more meditative and spiritual love and sex. And the fact that we were fasting meant that we would be together all day.

"It's like the sand mandala... nothing lasts forever. I want to make the most of what we got before meating in another life!" You said. I cupped you cheek and kissed you gently. Then we left for the abandoned monastery. The idea of being with the love of my life side by side with little to no candlelight, really opened me.

When we arrived you forced open the door and let me in first. The darkness effected my eyes at first, but they adjusted to it and then there was an eerie wind. The wind sounded like voices.

"So this is where you to fast and meditate, " I asked before we coupled. 

"My love that's what I told you before" you answered. I saw your sickly slender form come to me and I could feel you kiss me. "Nebo, darling, I want you to sit on my lap facing me, and couple with me. And while doing so we will chant 'Om man padme hum' together."

I obeyed and found the experience very intense and pleasurable. For the next six months we chanted mantras while making love like Om Mani Padme Hum for months on end. All they while I woke up in the middle of night to check if you were still breathing. You are the most precious person I have ever loved.