Dragged Down By Her past

Shots- Amelia's POV

Amelia's POV-

"I... I don't even know what to say," Loren sobbed as she looked at the hard ground beneath our feet.

I didn't know what to say either. I mean, I wasn't the one that pushed her away. I hadn't been the one to shun her and ignore her even though she had been my best friend and lifeline for the past two years.

We had once been so close, just like sisters. I had always helped keep structure and calmness in her life. She had helped bring me back to life. She helped me remember that there were good people in the world still, despite everything that I had went through.

Loren was truly a good person. Yes, sometimes she acted too impulsively, made snap judgements, and acted too emotionally. Overall, though, deep to her core, she was a good person. She loved hard and cared about people deeply.

She had been a really good friend to me those two years. She kept my head above water when I really wanted to let myself drown. She had been what kept me alive, even if she hadn't realized what she was doing for me.

Those were the reasons that I couldn't simply write her off. I loved her. I was angry with her, but I still loved her. She had been my best friend. She had been the only person that I had for years after I left Marcus. She would forever have a place in my heart.

"I'm so sorry," she finally said as tears fell out of her eyes rapidly.

"I know," I confirmed to her as tears came to my own eyes. "I also know how hard those words are for you to say," I said with a small smile. "I just..."

"I know...." She sighed. "I messed up. I... abandoned you. Right when you needed me most, I abandoned you," she sobbed.

"You did," I agreed, not defending her because there was not much to defend with. "I understand that you were hurt and confused, but you didn't stop for one second to think about me, Lor. I know that I hadn't told you everything about Marcus, but that was at least partially because I wanted to forget about him. Also, I was trying to protect you. You didn't need to know all the dirty details about my ex's life. Plus, what would you have done if you knew? Kicked me out? Run away? What?"

"I... No, I would have never kicked you out," Loren said strongly.

"Then... what? What was all this about then? Why did you shun me? Why-?"

"I don't know!" She sobbed harder. "I just... I was upset and I lashed out by cutting you out of my life. My whole life has been derailed and blown apart by all of this, and I just... I wanted someone tangible to blame. I know that it was Marcus' doing, but I didn't even know who he was. I just... I was wrong and stupid. I mean, my whole life was derailed but... What was my life without you in it?" She said in a broken voice that made me cry even harder. "I mean it Ammy! Both of our lives revolved around each other so much. I guess... I don't know, I guess I decided that if my whole life was being turned inside out then you would be apart of that. I-I don't really have any better explanation. I know that it's selfish and stupid, but I... I don't-"

Her words were drowned out by gunshots. Gunshots that were firing rapidly. Gunshots that were coming from more than just one gun. Gunshots that were timed so perfectly and precisely.

I didn't think about my actions. It didn't matter what had happened between us because ultimately, I would die for Loren any day of the year. Even when other people would say that she didn't deserve it, I would defend her and protect her.

That was why it was so easy for me to push her to the ground and get on top of her. It was easy for me to cover her body with my own, even as I felt the bullets eat through my skin. It was easy for me to sacrifice myself.