you left me first...

{ headache }

Mattheo's POV

I woke up with a serious headache. I can't remember what happened the night before just that I had left with Nott and his friends to go drink. After that everything was a blur. I turned my head around to my bedside table and saw a glass half full of water on it. I had no idea where the glass came from I doubted that I- Y/N. I remember now that she helped me to my room and got me water and a pill. I really hope I hadn't said anything to her. 

Being around her again was weird. When I first saw her at Hogwarts I almost froze. She looked so different so grown up she was beautiful. At first, I wasn't even completely sure it was her, but when she locked eyes with mine I saw that same little girl from so many years ago. 

It pained me to leave her but I couldn't stay. 

Y/N POV

I woke up sweating and panting. I didn't know what time it was but it was still dark out. Only two days back at school and I'm already having nightmares again. I got them a lot when I was little. They normally included my father and his dickhead friends. I didn't get them as much anymore but I guess Mattheo being back made me think about everything before Hogwarts a lot more. 

I quietly got some shoes and a jacket on trying my best not to wake Pansy. The cold air hit my face as I stepped out of my dorm and out into the passage. I thought about checking if Blaise and Draco were awake but I decided not to. 

I didn't know where to go so I went to the courtyard. It was normally pretty quiet out there in the morning. Most of the time people preferred to stay inside the castle where it's warm. 

When I got outside I was surprised to see somebody already out there. I couldn't tell who it was yet but they had fluffy dark brown hair and they were wearing a black hoodie. As I got closer I realised that it was Theodore Nott. He had a cigarette in between his lips. I was about to go sit on a bench across from his but then he spoke up. 

"The other benches are all wet I dried this one off so your welcome to sit over here" He was now looking at me as he puffed out smoke. I walked over to him and sat down next to him. We both stayed in silence before he said something. 

"Smoke?" He asked while holding out the cigarette to me. I looked down at the cigarette in his hand before reaching out to take it. I brought it up to my lips and breathed in. Then out. 

"Rough few days back?" He said. I'm guessing he was referring to the bags under my eyes and the smudged mascara. 

"Uh yeah. Sort of I guess" 

"Yeah, schools shit. You know you gotta get all these good grades and shit when I know I'm gonna end up just as fucked as my dad. So I dunno what the point is"  

"Yep.."

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We sat there talking for about an hour or so. Not about anything in particular just random shit school, home, people. He was good to talk to. I laughed more than I had in a long time. We could joke around about more serious stuff without either of us getting worried or offended. Pansy and Blaise and Draco were great and all but the second I made some slight joke about my life at home they would get all worried and sappy. Which is ok I guess because they're just looking out for me but sometimes I just wanted them to not worry and just go along with it. 

Theo's home life seemed to be pretty fucked up and his dad sounded like a dick. I told him about my family but not much. We talked about other stuff though not just our families. Like he told me that he wanted to be an Auror who plays quidditch in their free time. I giggled at the quidditch bit.