Reminisce(On-going)

CHAPTER 1

"FIRST"

Her Pov

This is the day. The day that my mom was died. My first heartbreak .Dad choose to end it all ,he doesn't want to make my mom suffer for that long because everyday is painful ,he love her so much . My dad end it by letting her go.My mom got accident , she's pregnant that time .

My mom thankfully alive that day but she lost the baby.When she woke up and heard the news ,it's like she lost her mind .I was 7 years old that time ,too young to understand everything but I feel thier pain .

Day by day she tried to kill her self .She never accept the fact that we lost the baby .She never think anybody ,even me . It's like all the people that care for her doesn't exist .I always saw may dad crying ,blaming he's self .He always told that he will fix it ,my mom gonna be okay everything gonna be okay.

Weeks ,months passed my mom still the same .I miss her.Her voice , everything. One night I got a chance to go in thier room . I saw my dad downstairs talking with my grandparents ,so I grab the chance to go in her room .I was all smile that time thingking that she's gonna happy to see me and she miss me too .

The moment that I enter the room , everything change .Before ,the room always filled with laughter's but now the room is so quiet .The room is dark ,lampshade is on.

One step
I saw her sitting at edge of thier bed .

Two step
"Mom ?"
But she didn't response .I got panicked when she suddenly sobbed.I ran at her so I can make her calm . I touch her hand with my tiny fingers . She's still crying .I'm so sad seing my mom in this situation .

"S-sirene " she spoke
"Mom"
"Please stop crying " I'm starting to cry when she touch my face with her cold hands .

"Don't cry . You're my strong baby girl and soon a beautiful and strong lady ."

She kiss my forehead before she ask .
"Do you love mommy ?"

"Ye-s mommy , you're my only loving mommy " she smiled and hug me, a hug that soo tight .

"You're mommy love you too." She stare at my face before she release it .

"Mommy are you gonna be okay ? Do you want me to hug you again to make you happy ? What I'm gonna do to make you happy ? "
She just smiled at me .I always love her smile .

" I'm happy just seeing you smile ,so smile for mommy "
I smiled as wide as I could . She stood and spoke.

"Go to you're dad and hug him okay ?"

" Okay ?"

" Tell him that I love him .Go Serene . Don't worry mommy gonna be okay."

I stare at her face for long time .
"Yes mommy I will tell him . Promise me you gonna be okay ? you won't cry ?"

"I promise .Trust me "

I hug her waist and smiled .
"I love you so much mommy"
"I love you too."
I release her and starting to walk to the door.When I reach it I look back at her .

"Go Serene.You love mommy right ? go"

"I'm Sorry anak" she whispered something that I didn't hear.

I nooded . Thiers something on me that I don't wanna leave .I wanna stay right beside her.But I think she needs a rest so I smiled at her and closed the door.

I stay outside of their room for a minute .I don't know but I can't just leave . So I opened the door again, the moment that I opened it at first I was clueless of what I saw until I heard footsteps .It was dad he hug me as I began to cry .Until grandma hug me and cried. They shouting my mom's name.

I never knew that was last time that I could see my mom. I can't do anything ,I just cried and cried while grandma hugging me so tight and blocking my sight towards the room.

My dad run downstairs together with my mom carrying her in his arms .Lifeless.

I tried to escape in my grandma's embrace but I couldn't . Everything happened so fast .How I wish that I could bring back the time.I know that I couldn't do anything I'm just a little girl .All I could do is to cry .