Crumbling Down

All's well,

I can't believe that we have to go back to Paris in a few short weeks; as these past few weeks with Luka have been amazing. Surprisingly enough, we haven't yet made it to the beach, since my father's demanding schedule has had me called out nearly every day. Again I'm thankful for Luka's support. We ended up having many a talk about how little and how much control the both of us had over our lives; many ended in Luka speaking passionately in outrage at how much my father has me working, while I never see a penny.

Though today, we've finally found the time to head to the beach. I'm looking forward to spending the day uninterrupted with Luka; especially at the beach, as I love to swim. Just not for others to point their camera lenses at me. 

I love that once we're here alone, we can just sit in each other's company for hours on end, in contentment. Sharing a kiss, every here and there.  It's amazing to be around someone who understands what's going on with you and who tries to understand what they cannot comprehend. 

I mean my other friends are great and all, but I just can't tell them the things that I tell Luka. And even though Plagg knows about them, he can't do anything about it or doesn't seem to care; though that's just how he is, I know he cares as he's shown me he does, on many an occasion.  Sometimes my friends especially Alya, if she even half of what Luka knows on top of what she already knows my life would probably be even more of a mess than it already is. I bet i'd be under lock and key with absolutely no way out until I either turn 18 or my father dies; one of which is much closer to happening than the other. 

Now that I think about I wonder how ladybug is doing? I haven't heard of any Akuma attacks so,  guess that she's doing fine without me..... wait, oh shit, what happens if Luka finds out that I'm Chat noir? I mean ladybug is always saying if we ever reveal our identities our miraculous' will have to be taken away! I can't have my only source of freedom taken away! 

Then again I could just not her if Luka ever does find out, after all, what she doesn't know can't hurt her; right? 

I shouldn't keep that part of myself away from him, after all, it's one of the truest parts of me, then again everyone always finds that part annoying and not worthwhile. I guess that means that I'm afraid and I'm willing to admit that, yes, yes I am afraid of what he'd think of me risking my life every night on top of the long hours my father puts me through and school. At least being Chat noir is my choice and I enjoy it, mainly the freedom going around as he gives me.  

I should tell him sooner rather than later, but at the moment I just want to see where we'll go without the added stress knowing of Chat will inevitably cause. 

"Knock, knock." 

"Come in," I say, not looking away from the ceiling with which I've been staring for far too long.  

"Adrien, are you alright? You didn't come down to breakfast." 

I glance over at him, he's leaning on the inside of the doorframe arms crossed across his chest a worried look upon his face. 

"Yeah just reminiscing about some things, I'll be right with you." 

And with that, I stood from my place on the floor walking towards him reaching my arms for an embrace; that of which he accepts and we stand there for a while 'til my stomach grumbles and we pull apart heading down the many stairs to the kitchen. 

Overall it was a wonderful morning we had pancakes with real maple syrup! No idea how that was managed, usually I'm forbidden from eating things deemed too sugary; like for example the amazing pastries and baked goods from the Dupain-Cheng bakery.

"Luka? You still want to go swimming at the beach later?" 

"As you wish Buttercup," he says in that silky tone of voice he always has in the mornings. We've taken to falling asleep in each other's arms while I last as I'll most likely be confined to my bedroom once this 'vacation' is over. The exception is chat noir, not that Luka knows yet.