Never Be The Same Again | vsoo

Chapter 12: The Past

I came back from my thoughts. 

I looked around and noticed I'm inside Jungkook's car already.

I covered my face right away, groaning in frustration. My mind was still having a hard time dealing of what just happened earlier.

"Why did I let it happen?" I asked to myself. "Why?!" I scold myself as I tousle my hair in annoyance.

"What are you talking about?" He asked. I took a deep sigh and quickly glance at him after looking at front again. 

"Taehyung." I uttered. "That's what happened."

He immediately parked the car at the side of the road. He unbuttoned his seatbelt right away and turned to face me in the passenger's seat. 

"Why? What happened earlier?" He asked. I saw how his jaw tightened. I just stared at him and  didn't answer. 

"You we're mindlessly walking in the parking lot." He continued.

I looked away and bit my lips, right after. He sighed.

I can't tell him what happened. Or else he might know my secret.

"I'm thinking you don't want to talk about it." He stated.

"I-It's not that I don't want to, Kook." I glanced back at him again. "It's just not the right t-time."

"Its okay to tell me, Chi. I got my secrets on my own, too." He straightened his back and look directly in front. "But yeah it's might be right to just keep it, It's probably for the best, too. Besides, when is the right time, anyway?" He turned to face straight ahead again, clutching the steering wheel hard.

Now, I can really feel the tension between us. It's too suffocating. Within our years of friendship, this has been the most infuriating of all. 

And I didn't even like it a bit.

"Is that so?!" My voice sounded bitter. "Is that why you've been lying to me all this time."

He instantly look at me. "If you're talking about Lisa, I have no choice, we- I cut him off.

"You know damn well what I'm talking about, Kook." I firmly stated, jaw tightened. 

My jaw tightened, I knew damn well I can't take it anymore. 

So, here goes nothing.

I looked straight into his eyes. "Why did you and Mom lie to me?"

He froze on the spot. 

With jaw dropped and eyes widen in shock. "C-Chi," He stuttered, calling me as he tried to grabbed my hand but I scooted away from him.

"Tell me, Kook." I felt my tears started running down on my cheeks. "Why?"

"W-When did you know, Chi?" He brushed his hair up, feeling distressed. I saw him gulped hard and took a deep breath right after. "Y-you should not have r-remember it." He stated, shaking his head in disbelief.

I scoffed. "Why? To protect me? To ease the pain?" I laughed sarcastically. "I forgot how my Dad died. Why the fuck he died?! And you and my Mom just went along and portrayed this happy memories to me."

 "Too bad, I remembered it, huh." I suddenly became cold. "And you all just made the pain grow more inside of me."

He let out a whimper. He looked down as his started shredding tears, too.

But not that I care. They broke me first.

I force to close my eyes as the image pops out of my mind. It was my Dad, smiling at me. 

I punched my head and screamed out loud. It's my head. It's aching again. I don't want to feel this.. it hurts.. it hurts so bad..

Another image takes in..

A certain curve path.. an upside-down car that was crashed.

I open my eyes and looked around.. my dad on my left side at the driver's seat reaching me.. with his hands full of blood.. No, all of him. 

Blood is all over him.

I hate that part. I'm in that position again and its like I'm feeling all the pain all over once more. I opened my eyes. 

My sight was getting blurry. I was breathing so hard, too.

"Jisoo!" Fuck, what is happening?! JISOO!"

I can hear Jungkook's faint voices. 

Then, I was back at the scene again. 

"Go! Jisoo, go!" I crawled away from the up side down car. I stare at my Dad as he smiled at me. I was shaking uncontrollably. As I reach for him, he shook his head lightly.

"G-go call for h-help, bunny" He stated, his voice was already like a whisper. I whimper as I shook my head at him. 

"Go now!" He managed to yell. I was already sobbing but I managed to got up. I started walking away  after a minute or so, I heard a loud blast at my back. As I turned my back, I flew in the air.

And then just suddenly, everything went black.

***

I woke up staring at a white ceiling.

I was breath gradually and so slow. I gently glanced at my side. I was blinking so heavily as I felt so weak. 

My whole body was throbbing with pain a lot.

"C-chi." I opened my eyes and caught Jungkook staring down at me.

W-where-?" I couldn't continue to speak, my voice was almost gone. The oxygen contractor in my mouth also didn't help. It only came out as a whisper. 

What is happening to me? Why do I feel so weak? This didn't happened before.

No.

Actually, it did. That time when I first remember.

Jungkook softly grabbed my hand and put it in his cheek, caressing it gently. "I'm so sorry, Chi. I'm so sorry." He muttered it again and again as he sobs hard.

I tried glancing at the surroundings. I exhaled deeply as I slowly close my eyes. I tried to remember the last time I was conscious. We we're at Jungkook's car. 

Right, a car.

 That's why I don't like riding one.

I open my eyes again and glance at Jungkook again, he was still crying. He couldn't met my eyes.

"Kook" I called out. 

"I w-want-" He looked at me. "to know." 

"It. All."  I was still breathing heavily but I managed to say it.

"But—"

"P-please" I pleaded.

He started shaking his head, disagreeing. "It might not be good for you, Chi. I won't risk the—"

With my trembling hand, I tightened my grip on his hand. "Please."