I'll Wait For You

Twelve

Light Yagami

I couldn't believe that I'd made L smile and cry for the first time in front of me all in one day. It hurt me so much to leave Ryuzaki there like that, but I knew I needed to be honest with Misa. I got in her car and rode to her house. We ate the food that she'd gotten for us and then went to her room and sat on the bed.

"There's something I need to talk to you about, Misa." I started calmly.

"What is it?" She asked.

"...We can't be together anymore, I'm sorry."

"WHAT!? Is this about how I made that man turn himself in as Kira? I know-"

"No Misa... This has nothing to do with that," I answered, cutting her off.

"Then what is this about?"

"I just can't keep doing this, pretending to love you...I can't keep pretending."

"Then don't pretend, silly! You can't honestly tell me that you haven't felt even the tiniest bit of a attraction towards me. After our kiss tonight I know that you love me for sure!" she stated confidently.

"I never even liked you to begin with...I don't know why you believed so heavily that that would change but it hasn't, and it won't." 

My response was bitter, I was getting even more frustrated at her persistence and blatant ignorance than I already had been. For someone who supposedly cared about me so much, how couldn't she tell that I'd hated every second of "our" kiss? I would've pulled away if I hadn't been so embarrassed by the fact that L was seeing it all unfold right in front of him. I was practically frozen the whole time because it was a lot to process. Despite the whole ordeal feeling extremely gross to me, she of course didn't even slightly notice how I felt, big surprise.

"Where is this all coming from so suddenly? Is this about Ryuzaki seeing us kiss earlier?"

"No Misa-"

"Another girl? Is that it? If you're going to dump me I at least deserve to know why!" She protested, raising her voice.

"No it's not about a girl!" I shouted. "Or anyone, it's not about anyone else. This is just between you and me. Look, I feel bad that I hurt you. I should've never agreed to be with you in the first place, but you knew what you were signing up for, you literally told me that you wouldn't mind being with me even if I just used you," I replied.

"Exactly Light! The deal was that whether you had feelings for me or not we would stay together. No matter what!"

"Well the deal has changed, okay!?" I finally snapped. "Now that the Kira case is over, Ryuzaki and I are going to work together. I'm going to have to be with him everyday and night solving cases. I don't want to have to commit to whatever this is anymore, I just want to be with him!-I mean work! I just want to work with him," I stammered.

"...It all makes sense now."

"What are you talking about?"

"The being handcuffed to each other 24/7, the sleeping in the same bed, your sudden urge to drop everything you had worked for as Kira, his sudden switch from so desperately wanting to catch you to coming to me, asking how he can help save you from being caught. I was so stupid, this whole time I thought you were trying to get close to him to gain his trust so you could use that to hurt L, but you liked him. I was just a pawn and our whole relationship was what? Just a game? I never meant anything to you."

I couldn't tell if she was angry or sad, I'd say both but my guess is as good as yours. The point is whatever emotions she's feeling still doesn't equal how humiliated and confined she's made me feel in the time I've known her.