i'm done with feelings. Done. I sit at my petite luch table. Alone. Everything seems to be the way it was before joel was enrolled. I was the silent, unfeeling freak once again, not an ounce of me was worth speaking to apparently. But thats fine. Whatever. I pick at the now cold, lumpy mac 'n cheese with my plastic spork as I sigh. Joel wasnt talking to me anymore so i couldnt get close to the audi driver which means i have to put that aside and find a new lead. Ugh. I get up and toss my lunch in the trash, deciding to skip the rest of the day. The red steel front doors of hinley high slammed shut behind me as i step into freedom.
I head towards the the nearest starbucks craving a peach blossom tea. (AN: I cant remember what its called) The streets are extremely crowded full of rushing people so naturally i begin to eavesdrop.
" I'm just so nervous. I dont think i can tell them..." A high pitched male voice says frantically. my eyes scan two 20ish year old men and notice the linked hands.
" Ben, it'll be fine. I told my family when i was 18 and at first it was a little hard but they still love me. Just dont listen to those stuid magazines about 'coming out of the closet' just be yourself, okay? They already love you. I love you..." Says the other. They both lean in to peck eachother on the lips as i round a corner onto 21st st. Awww.
A family of four scramble infront of me. The mom and dad have there heads flying everywear, trying to keep an eye on their two kids who are running around like chickens with their heads cut off. One is a little boy about the age of four and the other is a girl around the same age, maybe twins. The boy is chasing his sister around with his finger stuck out towards her.
" Ewww!!! Daddy hewp me!!! Joshy is goin to huwt me wif his gross boogy!!!" The little blond girl screaches. The parents just scoop their kids up, cradling them in their arms.
A little bell chimes as i step into starbucks. I wait at the counter as i hear an annoying giggle. And there he sits with the queen bee and her busy worker bees. I roll my eyes and order my tea. I lean against the counter waiting as a man dressed all in black enters and makes a beeline towards joel. I cant see his face but the black is alarming enough. I watch intently. The man whispers in his ear and joel looks almost angry. Joel stands up and drags the guy my his sleeve out the door. As they rush past me i see the man and my mouth hangs open. He looks almost exactly like joel except has bright red hair and a few freckles scattered across the bridge of his nose. I fall out of my state of shock and follow them with no hesitation.
