Jackettes & Jackasses

Guilt

"You guys are idiots" I said as Steve-O  and Dave walked up to us wearing only a bear hat and matching speedos.

"But you love us anyway." Steve-O said kissing the top of my head. I gave him a weak smile then walked over to where Dunn was standing by the bees.

"You okay?" He asked me.

"Yeah, why wouldn't I be?" I said giving him a smile.

"Oh I don't know, maybe how you've been acting around ‘O lately?" He said sarcastically. "Don't get smart with me, Dunn." I said messing around.

"Come on, spill. You haven't been the same around him since you've been back" He said stepping in front of me crossing his arms.

"I just.. feel guilty. I left him when he was at his worst. Here he was, suicidal, while I was out traveling the world having the time of my life. Everytime I look at him I'm reminded of how I wasn't there for him." I said looking down at my feet.

"Hey, look at me." He said grabbing my face, making me look at him.

"You have nothing to feel guilty about, you didn't know. And by the time you found out you were halfway across the world. You couldn't have done anything."

"I could have been there." I said with a crack in my voice. Trying to hold in the tears.

"You were exactly where he wanted you to be, you were happy and that's all that mattered to him. He sees how you've been acting.. you need to talk to him." I thought for a moment then nodded and Ryan pulled me into a hug.

We walked over to where Steve-O and Dave were about to play Beehive Tetherball. Loomis was rushing through his words as the bees were stinging him and he passed the hive to Steve-O who hit it to Dave. Dave was freaking out everytime he got stung but it seemed like Steve-O wasn't even getting hit.

"Shit" I heard him curse and grab his leg. Nevermind. Dave finally freaked out and ran across the field, Loomis began rolling in the grass and Steve-O just kept playing until he got stung too much.

"Hey, throw me the dip and aloe out of that bag." I yelled to Knox and he threw it to me. I walked over to Dave, and Manny and Steve-O where trying to get him to calm down.

"Dude just sit down, you're fine." I said to Dave but he didn't listen.

"If you don't sit down I'm not gonna help you" I yelled to him.

"How the hell are you gonna help" he said.

"Just fucking sit down." I said annoyed. He sat in the grass and I rubbed the Aloe on the stings and then put a finger full of Dip on them. Then did the same with Steve-O.

"How'd you know this would help?" He asked me while I rubbed aloe on the sting on his ribs. "My mom did it to me when I'd get stung. The aloe helps the stinging and the tobacco in the dip pulls the poison out." I said, never looking up. After a moment of silence Steve-O spoke up.

"What's going on with you?" He said in a low voice.

"I don't want to talk about it right now." I said wiping my hands on my jeans.

"Somethings off with you." He said making me look at him.

"I don't want to talk about it right now. Just come to my room tonight." I said holding eye contact with him for the first time. He just nodded and I walked off.