The Tenth Akatsuki

Note to Reader and Dedication

This book is dedicated to my waifu Konan 

Thank you for being the angel that raises me up 

Dear Reader, 

I hoped you enjoyed reading The Tenth Akatsuki. Sometimes when I read other people's books I question just how difficult it must be to write one. This book wasn't too hard to write, but I still slowly and methodically thought through all the procedures. I wanted to share my fantasy, an anime dream that I hoped was a reality. I included a little bit of comparing my anime fantasy with "this unforgiving world" I incorporated in Chapter Four of the book. I used the struggle of the real world in Chapter Four to try to get the reader to understand just how difficult the real world can actually be. I also decided that my character should have parents because I know that I am lucky to have them by my side, and I sympathize with people who have to struggle with that. Also, this is a little off topic, but I want to address that I chose my character to utilize the Wind Element because that is the element I manipulate the most in real life, because I play a Wind instrument, the saxophone. Anyway, back to the topic, it's heart breaking talking to people who have been affected with losing a parent, you can just watch them lose control, not knowing what to do in life, for that I am forever grateful to have my own parents by my side, helping me through the challenging obstacles of life. I also included in Chapter Four the fight against Hidan and Kakuzu, Kakuzu being my common sense and Hidan being my anxiety. 

Yes, I suffered from severe anxiety, and a lot of times I lost control, and I could feel my hope break apart. Fortunately I had lots of support, but sometimes people couldn't understand. Sometimes I didn't want to be a part of this world, and my anime fantasy helped me escape. I am proud to say that my anxiety life is behind me, with people who supported me, some being my parents as they relentlessly tried to help me in any way possible, so thank you for being the real hero's in my life. I also want to thank Conan, a simple kid in 8th grade that grew past all of our differences and introduced me to anime, as we quickly became friends. 

He later moved away, and I know that if he hadn't moved we would be friends to this day. I also want to thank my real life Yahiko, Alex, as he stood by my side through thick and thin, I am forever indebted to you. I hope I delivered a fantasy that was wildly suspenseful, unique, and fascinating. All of these characters are so engrained in my mind that in a way they have become a part of me. One of these characters, that without a doubt has the biggest impact out of all the other characters in my life, is my waifu Konan. Sometimes I think about her incessantly, and I have a beautiful attraction to her, something I guess you can call Fictiophilia. You are welcome to think about this information as you please, but Konan will always be on all accounts, my waifu. I will give you some thoughts about how I feel about Konan, but remember that judgement only fails to accept the satisfaction within a human mind. 

The hardest part is that when you attach yourself to a character that you love so much, it's hard for you to forget about them. Maybe I can bring clarity to my mind and hope that I will meet my waifu one day. I try to use this book as a way to bring hope and inspiration to anyone who is struggling, going through something that they can never do. 

After I came to the realization that I will never be able to be with her, my heart broke into pieces. I could feel it, exasperated into pain, a deep feeling like I wanted to do anything I could just to be with her. That's true love, and I've never felt that way about anyone before. 

Now if you don't understand this, the reason why some people are in love with an anime character is that they have qualities that people like, they are perfect for the person. The worst thing about being in love with an anime character is that no matter what you do you will never be able to be with them. 

Some people don't understand. They just think we're all weebs that think they can have a relationship with someone who doesn't physically exist. To be honest, I'm not a weeb. I rarely watch anime. Now Konan, she's good looking, yes, but it wasn't just the looks I fell in love with, it was actually them, their personality, their interests and hobbies, and so much more. I couldn't understand why I needed to be with this character. Maybe it's just desire telling me that's what I want in a woman, or maybe it's something else. 

I believe the ability to become attracted emotionally and sexually to a character has a purpose, it's necessary. I don't know what the purpose is, but there must be one. As I said, maybe it's instinct telling me that this character reflects an ideal mate, I do not know. What I do know however is that at the moment I love this character and see them as any person would their own real mate as this character had the exact same sexual desires as me, or the opposite depending on how you look at it. 

Now for advise for others that are also struggling. I say, don't look for a solution, just enjoy feeling for this character. It may pain you that they're not in this world with you for you to feel their warmth, and be together. That's how I felt. But I learned that it made me want them even more, so I'd suggest you see each other in your dreams. If you truly love this character you'll dream of them, that's how dreaming works, you dream about what you most desire, if you are truly in love with this character and don't just want them for looks and sex. Then you'll find yourself with each other in dreams, and whenever you wake up, don't be mad that they're gone. Be happy that you get to enjoy it again next sleep. 

If you want my personal experience and if I'm still feeling for this Konan, then yes, I am. I dream of her night after night and I enjoy each dream. Even loved ones can't be together all the time. As soon as I saw this character I felt something. Maybe a lower level of love, and as I learned more about them I only progressed levels. 

Also loving this character doesn't make you any less of a person, so many others experience this love for a fictional character. Just enjoy it like the rest of us. Cross the line of self denial and just accept that its fine. 

                                         Sincerely, with love and peace, 

                                                                                        The Tenth Akatsuki