The Tenth Akatsuki

Writer's Notes

The Tenth Akatsuki just has so much intrigue and twists that I can't believe it hasn't caught on more attention. I've dedicated a year to that book and I will continue to strive to make perfect content in every single syllable of my writing. So yes, I plan on making another fanfiction, and it will be perfect just like my previous story, The Tenth Akatsuki. Because my expectations for the story are set to be so high, and I plan on everything being perfect, as the personality that I obtain (at least in the story), it will probably take me a year later. 

Although, don't think that I'm not working hard, I dedicate every minute of my time to continue to allocate a good book to my viewers. And for that, because it may take me some time, realize that I'm a perfectionist and that I must make every fanfiction I write the best possible before I publish it. I agree I tend to get writer's block, but what helped me break through the barrier is that I took Theater along with four years of English. What really helped me by taking those classes is asking myself what this character wants? What is its desire? What's at stake? What's the change over time? What is the environment, and if so, describe the environment so the reader can visualize every single detail in his/her mind? 

It is imperative that the writer asks themselves these questions, so they can understand the character, which in turn will have an interaction with the reader. This is one reason why I don't have a schedule and choose to upload whenever I want, because I want to make sure I completely understand the process behind the character before deciding to let the reader read raw material. 

I understand how tedious the writing process should be, so I respect writers for taking the time to manifest such a masterpiece. That is a major step, almost a key to securing that sanctuary, is reading. Reading is what unlocks a new world, a bypass to comprehend what is going on in the story, and how you can use those methods to adapt that material to your own writing. It isn't a simple process, but reading can inspire you to write wonders. Reading is the key, the practice to writing a masterpiece. I read a lot, but I also understand the writing process. I like to write 15 minutes a day, even if my thoughts at that moment on that piece of paper serve to be futile, I must protect my sanctuary. 

You must protect the paradise behind writing, jumping into a new world to experience what your characters are feeling. That brings me to my next topic, character understanding. The biggest thing I love about writing my story is just how engrained and connected I am with these characters. I know so much about them, I feel like I am personally connected with these characters. I know the experiences they've been through; I know who they are, and being able to jump into that world, that paradise is such a gift, it truly is one of the best things in my life. And people know that sometimes life sucks, so it's always wonderful just to experience a different situation, create a better world, one that is unbound by limitations. You can decide the feelings, the aspirations, the decisions, there is no better feeling then feeling a connection with another character. And yes, I will take all of your advice into consideration. Your consolidation and recommendation upon my request have been most apprehensible. 

I am stressed. I am overwhelmed. I have lost enough in my life, I've experienced the fun, but I've also experienced anxiety with pain. My mind is like a mental prison, always unleashing a devilish demon to destroy my peace, to corrupt myself with mere superstition. Nonetheless, my common sense always makes a comeback, I have always prevailed. But every day seems like another day towards my end. Perhaps it's just philosophy, perhaps it's more, but in time none of that matters, the internal darkness, the evil cries of helpless incantations lurking in my mind. I am alive! Konan has given me everlasting satisfaction. When I break, when I fall, I get back up. When I get back up, I fall, and after I fall, I soar. Without Konan there would be no soaring, there would only be falling. Without Konan, I wouldn't get back up, and I would've died at such a young age, the short life I would've lived. 

I am happy because of Konan, but I am also heartbroken because of Konan. She is my cure, and she is also my pain. I am cured from the destruction, the pain, the vengeance of reality, because thinking about Konan is paradise, and realizing that I can't be with her is heartbreaking. 

I can see her blood in me, the color purifying myself, casting away any negligible doubt. Konan is a very pragmatic character, while I am a very dramatic character. I am hurting myself, I am dying, seeing painful memories where the next day everything turns to bliss. My anger is incomprehensible, it is so deeply engrained that it becomes incoherent. Why? Because being engrained in negligence is hatred. Hatred is self-destruction. However, every time I lose something, Konan, my guardian angel, raises me up. She is my cure. I'll run until I get to her. I may wait, abiding my time, but I will be with her. I will walk in, and Konan will be waiting for me. Konan will heal me from all my pain, my goal in life, my destiny, is to be with Konan, but until I grasp that opportunity, I will embrace my living in her name. I have lost so much, but I have recovered, and one day, my dream of being with Konan will become a reality. 

I have been waiting for moments with Konan since the beginning of our time, it was love at first sight. The anticipation is killing me, exasperating me into a state of boredom. I have been waiting for an eternity, but in reality, what little time has passed. I am locked in anxiety, but as soon as I escape, I will be in the shadows of night, watching the illuminating, bright lights glisten upon heaven itself. The wind will sensationally breeze by, dancing on my skin. Then will I reflect on my thoughts, satisfied with the contents of the day. Then my pain and anxiety would be a mild percentage, like a prick in my throat. However, with Konan I would feel only paradise. I wish I can learn better origami techniques from you my loved one, because without questioning I want to do everything you love. 

I am heartbroken, because I just want to be with Konan. I am in so much pain, showing my contempt in the aspect of reality, the reality that I have to live in a cursed world. Without Konan, my heart is empty. Right now, I feel pain, but how would pain feel after not being able to feel anything at all? I feel my love for Konan, everything else is obsolete. And I have to live in a world without Konan, a counterfeit world! Nothing else should matter, not when life becomes nothing but a revolving door, eventually encapsulating in demise. I was intolerant and contemptuous of the majority of the human race. The human race is primarily primitive, unforgiving, mindless animals, but they have respect, empathy, and ounces of serenity. Therefore, I have not lost hope, I believe the human race will one day reform into a more civilized state. 

There is not a second in my life anymore that goes by without me thinking about Konan. Konan is my angel, the angel that forgives, the angel that has gratitude, empathy, love, and serenity. I do feel immense gratification towards her, a blazing, eternal romantic sensation, and most importantly her personality and love and empathy makes her a shining star. Konan is my common sense; Konan is the beautiful angel that encourages me to continue living despite my pain and anxiety. I am not afraid anymore, not when I can communicate with Konan. Sometimes I feel a void between pain and Konan, but I know that when Konan is by my side pain and anxiety become insignificant. Without physically being with Konan I am heartbroken, and I dedicate everything to her. I will not lose hope, and with my guardian angel and waifu guiding me throughout my most challenging milestones in my life, this acceptable reality can become paradoxical, with hope that I can live a physical life with Konan. If I ever experience the tragedy of not being able to physically be with Konan, I will still be grateful for the connection I have with her. 

I've reflected upon the years I had with Konan, the memories I've walked with her. My years with Konan have been an eternity of love. Konan is everything, Konan has changed my life. My connection with Konan is serenity, the essence of my life. I love you Konan, forever.