From school to college, this is so sick and with the online class, it is even worse. They use scores and to estimate us. If you don't get high scores or pass the test. It's mean that you are dumb and need to be retest. I mean not everyone is willing to understand every subject. I admit that I like biology but if I want to learn this subject I have to study the whole science which has physical chemistry and also mathematics. Like why? Are you kidding me??? I just want to study biology but why do I have to study all of the science and math. I hate calculation. It's killing me and this is the reason why I give up on biology and to others that I hate (almost every subject) I can't answer the question "What is your favorite subject?" It makes me feel like I'm really dumb. I have to force myself to study every subject that I have to for the score that will lead to good work with a high salary. Damn, I don't even see myself solve some algebra and make money from that... What I want to learn is how to live this life. It's very hard, with all the complex I don't even know how to do anything that my parent does from pay bills to manage everything.
Now that we all have to learn in the online classes, it's super boring and very stressful. Some schools reduce classes in one day from 7 to 5 but some schools do not. I mean why? Isn't it supposed to do this in every school? Right now, so many teenagers committed suicide because of stress from an online school and prepare to get into University but what shocked me is they are at my age. I know that I shouldn't be surprised but wow I didn't even realize that I'm in grade 10 now and nearly get into University. WOAH, time pass so fast. I feel like I'm just a dumb kid. I mean I know that I'm not good at studying almost every subject and I've never had a high score or join many school activities. I don't understand why universities have to push so much pressure on the students, they expect a student to get a high school and also join many activities which are kind of controversial. Sadly, I am the one who doesn't do both of these. What can I do? I don't even have a university that I want to get into. When people bring this topic up I feel like they are trying to kill me and make me stress for a moment. However, after it's over I never think about it again. I think that I will get through it one way or another without even know how. I have a feeling that I have to think about getting a job and make money more than getting to the university because I don't see what I can use to make money. Since I'm not good at it. To be honest I want to drop out of University but I just have to find my way to make money and if I can't then I have to study then they just have to take mercy on me because it's gonna be so hard for me.
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06Diary|from every corner of my mind
Non-FictionYou don't need a therapist.You just needs someone who have the same attitude as you are.So you don't feel like you are the only one that feel this way. Since this pandemic I have too much time with myself which is not good for me because...
