People think that I'm a person who doesn't give a fuck about anything or anyone, but deeply I do. I'm just not kind of person that show other people that I care obviously. Usually I will show by an action, that's kind of hard to see because I'm not gonna say any word, like "you know I care about you" "don't worry" and even more I don't even face expression, my face gone blank when I see someone cry. like shouldn't I just show some expression or may be a bit of sympathy? I mean I care and I want to comfort them but I don't know how. I'm afraid that that person will get worse if I say something in inappropriate without any intention which I never want it to happen for sure and as I say that I show it by an action is like I'm not gonna do anything that I don't like when others do it to me to anyone and I'm not gonna do something that when other do to me makes me feel uncomfortable.As you know that I often feel left out so I never want others to feel the same way because it's the worst feeling ever. There's the time when I played wakeboard with my friends and one of them got injured, she had to stop playing and took a rest alone while other are having fun. So I went to stood near her because if I were her I would feel so lonely that no one really care and yeah I literally said nothing... it's like everything that I do it to someone because I have a feeling that if I were them it would be how I actually feel. I try to help them to prevent the bad feeling with no words. Which I think sometimes it's work but I don't know if they know it or not, but anyway I'm still gonna do it because this is the only way that I show that I cares about others. It doesn't really matter if they notice or not.
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06Diary|from every corner of my mind
Non-FictionYou don't need a therapist.You just needs someone who have the same attitude as you are.So you don't feel like you are the only one that feel this way. Since this pandemic I have too much time with myself which is not good for me because...
