She was the happiness the boys lacked in their lives, she was always so bubbly and happy bringing joy to everyone she met. Except herself of course, from the inside she was slowly wasting away. Depression clouded her every thought even with her fake pep. She always comforted the brothers abd sometimes even Castiel in their low moments. So much so she alnost forgot about the pain inside her. Despite her feelings she remained “happy” for the sake of those around her. Sometimes her smile her real smile would show gracing those around her with a small amount of happiness. This time wasn’t one of those times.
“(Y/N) you ok? You’ve been really quiet” Sam asked his worry filled orbs meeting your briefly in the rear veiw mirror. You desperately wanted to scream, cry, and just tell him you weren’t ok, but of course you didn’t. “Don’t worry about me Sammy I’m just tired is all” you replied lying through your teeth. Sam glanced one more time into your eyes before humming accepting your excuse. Your soul shattered a little more at this, you wished Sam or Dean would recognize your suffering. Dean, you imagined what attractive women he would bring home this time. His one night stands always sent jealously burning through every ounce of your body. You loved him and so desperately wanted him to love you, but you knew he wouldn’t. You weren’t his type with your baggy clothes to conceal your insecurities, and your little to no make up, you looked nothing like his normal hook up. The sound of the Impala’s engine shutting down awoke you from your thoughts. “Finally”, you said stretching. Dean chuckled lightly helping you take your things into the motel. ‘Thank Cas in heaven for giving me my own room’, you thought to yourself dragging your bag into your temporary room. Once you were sure you were alone you let the tears you have held up for so long flow free. Your weak and tired body collapsed face first onto the bed soaking the comforter with salty tears. Suddenly your door was thrown open quickly, “Hey (Y/N) I ju-“, he stopped short seeing you like this, his mouth agape. You cursed internally at your simple blunder, you always lock the door! You sniffled quickly wiping your tears. “(Y/N)”, Dean breathed his voice barely above a whisper. Slowly he sat down next to you and pulled you into his lap, his large hand rubbing circles into your back as he held you. Gripping onto his flannel you sobbed into his chest. “It’s okay (Y/N), it will be okay I promise”, he comforted smoothing down your hair." I just you and S-Sammy always say I'm your light; And I just I can't do this anymore Dean;, your voice broke and more tears slipped down your already slick cheeks. Dean grabs your hands in his and makes you look at him,"I know you can do this (Y/N) your the strongest person I know. That doesn't mean you cant tell me when your upset I will always be here for you. I-I love you. Remember even the brightest lights flicker from time to time.", his deep gruff voice ended in a whisper. "I love you too Dean", you choked out. Dean pulled you to hus chest again and hummed 'Hey Jude' in your ear as your sobs subsided. In that moment you were sure you were going to be fine. And even if your light did go out Dean would always be there to relight it.
A/N: ok so two things sorry i know i have tons of requests to get to lol second i posted this first on my tumblr a while ago but you know i thought i would post it here.... ALSO YOU CAN OFFICIALLY REQUEST FOR SUPERNATURAL!!!! ok well i love you guys byeee
