Mockingjay: A different ending

After

"Do you love me real or not real?" He asks hopefully.
The question catches me off guard, do I love him? He was like a dandelion in the spring, sweet, gentle and always caring. is he what I need to continue on, I ask myself. I want to say yes but something keeps pulling me the other way. Gale. He was there for me when no one else was, he was my best friend, I trusted him with my deepest secrets, And what did I do, I lost him because I'm too damn stubborn to make the first move and talk about what happened. Yes, he might have made that bomb but how could he have told district 13 to launch the bombs. He loved prim like his own sister I remind my self.
"Katniss...." Peeta says breaking me out of my trance.
"Peeta...I..... Um..." I stumble for words, he has always been the better one with them.
"Don't worry, katniss, I get it, just go" he says with the most painful expression on his face I've ever seen.
"Peeta, I.." I began
"I said GO" he yells making me jump back.
After that I leave silently, my feet seem to go on to auto pilot and take me directly to the woods. I grab my bow and arrows out of the hollow tree and make my way to mine and gales meeting place. I sit on the rock as tears silently make there way down my face. This rock is too big without gales body beside mine. I close my eyes and count to ten hoping that he will appear like he use to. Of coarse he doesn't though. He's in district two with some fancy job probably with some other girl that is 10 times better than me, who actually deserves him. It seems I'm only capable of hurting every one around me. I get up and start it walk home, what's the point of hunting anyway, I have more than enough food than I can eat and it isn't the same without Gale here with me. My feet guide me once again, but this time to haymitch's house. I enter and for once in as long as I choose to remember I see a sober haymitch.
"Hey, sweetheart, I heard what you did to the boy. Just so you know he's not happy"
I decide to ignore what he's just said, as if I don't know how peeta feels right now.
"Where's gale?" I ask.
He sighs and sits down " I told you, girl, he's in two"
" you know what I meant haymitch" I say already frustrated with him. He sits there a few moments then gets up and grabs a piece of paper." His phone number if you really care"
then with that he sits back down and grabs a bottle, so much for being sober.
I get up to leave but he grabs my arm and says " don't do anything stupid" then he lets me leave.

An hour later I still pace around the kitchen thinking about wether or not to call him. I finally pick up the phone and dial the number. I wait for a couple seconds but on the second ring someone picks the phone up.
" hello?" A female voice answers.
My heart drops into my stomach. How could he move on that fast?
" I....um....is Gale there" I ask, stumbling a lot on my words.
"Yes" the girl replies " just a sec,"
In the back ground I hear her shouting his name and walking. Jealously makes knots in my stomach. who is she? Why is she there with him? I don't care where he is or what has happened, he is mine no matter what.
"Hello?" Gale says
" I... Um.. Hi.." I respond my voice high and unnatural. "Listen, can you come to twelve, as soon as you can?"
The other end is silent for a second, but then he starts to talk
" um..I don't know, katniss, we still have a lot of work to do, the earliest I could be out would be... Sunday." He says finally.
"Ok" I say and with that I hang up the phone.