Perfidious || Dream Smp Royalty AU

"I'll live for myself"

"I may be heartless, but you're naive."

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Trigger Warning: panic attacks, blood, self-harm

I felt like I was going to throw up.

I stood up quickly and darted away tripping on my dress. Dream yelled out my name but there was no way I was staying near him.

Tears flooded out of my eyes blurring my vision as I ran. I kept going until I couldn't hear his voice yelling for me to stop.

I collapsed onto my knees and sobbed. Everything was a lie. The person I trusted most in life was phony and a monster.

He had used me and my vulnerability as a way to fulfill his own desires. I loved him with my whole being and he manipulated that.

It was too much. I started hyperventilating and choking. I scratched at my arms until they bled. Anything to distract me from the heartache.

He was so cruel and I hated him. I hated him so much. But what I hated more was the fact that I still wanted to see him. I wanted him to be here and comfort me. To tell me it was all a lie and he hadn't taken me away from freedom.

But I knew better. Dream wasn't lying. I could hear the sincerity in his voice. I knew he was angry too. He must have been for years.

Once I had calmed down to a certain level, I took a good look at my surroundings. I was in a thicker part of the garden. It was pretty hidden with trees surrounding the area where I was sitting. I decided I would stay here until someone ultimately found me and took me back to Dream.

By now I was exhausted and decided sleep would be a good escape from my nightmare of a reality.

I laid back on the soft grass and closed my eyes. A few tears slipped out before unconsciousness took over.

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The sky was already pitch-black by the time I heard footsteps getting closer to where I was sitting.

I quietly jumped up and pulled myself up into a spruce tree. I hoped the leaves were too dark for anyone to see me.

Unluckily, the steps stopped a few feet away from the tree. The figure took a few steps closer before stopping again.

I tried seeing who it was and spotted a white headband.

"I know you're up there," Sapnap said.

I didn't move hoping he would magically just walk away.

He didn't and instead walked right under me and looked up. When he saw my shaken state his hard eyes softened. He looked down at my arms caked with dried blood.

"Oh, Thea..." He said sadly.

I don't know why but I started tearing up again.

Sapnap noticed this and started climbing the tree. He pulled me into his arms and brought us back down.

I was too tired to fight him and I would hate to admit it but at this moment all I wanted was for someone to comfort me.

He held me close as I cried into his chest. His hand rubbed circles on my back and he whispered soothingly into my ear.

We stayed like this for about 20 minutes before I calmed down from my breakdown.

He pulled away from me and grabbed my arms softly.