Love is for Losers

Chapter 4

* One year later* 

       -Abagail 

"Hey Mia, It's been a year since you left. I've made lots of new friends in High-school and I'm taking Spanish! The year is ending and I'm passing so woooo! You would've really liked it. Your family is moving away now. I guess things haven't really been the same here without you.                                                                                                                                    I still really miss you Mia.  I got really depressed after you left.  No one really ever knew why you did it. Mum sent me to therapy over the summer. It was kind of like a camp but everyday, we talked to different women and men about our feelings. Whatever. I don't go to church anymore, I'm kind of different now.  I stopped believing in god and all that after you left. Like seriously, what kind of god would take a perfect girl like you away? Well maybe you weren't made for this cruel Earth. Anyways!                                                                                                                                                                    Mom is expecting a baby boy in a couple months, she's already getting big. You know, I've always wanted to be a big sister! I hope you're enjoying where ever you may be now, Mia, I hope it's everything you wanted it to be. I'll see you soon.  

        xoxo Abby"

* Two years later *
 
"Hey Mia. It's been a while. Three years exactly since you took your own life. Nope, I haven't forgotten about you. I'm a Sophmore now, I dropped Spanish, It was getting difficult and stuff. So... there's this boy. His name is Joshua or Josh for short. He's a little nerdy but he's still pretty cute. We're not dating, but we've been texting lately and he's been calling me beautiful and stuff. He's so sweet! He's a junior. :)  I hope he asks me to prom (which is coming up! It's going to be really exciting!) I still think about you a lot and miss you so so much. I wish you were here with me now and maybe you are, who knows?  Yeah, sometimes life is hell down here but it's okay. Everything ends up okay eventually. Yeah, it hurts but it's okay, the pain ends. Love ya Mia! Hope you're having fun. 
       xoxo Abby"

*One year later * 

     "Oh my god, Hey Mia! Guess what?! Everything is falling together so perfectly! Things didn't work out with Josh but now I'm dating the QB of the Football team! He's such a hottie omg. i think I'm in love. I'm going to give him all of me tonight. Hope you're proud of me for finding love Mia. I'm going to be with Dylan forever&ever! He promised. It was sooooo cute(: 
       I'm a junior now, passing, high school is difficult but worth it. I sang at a few gigs with some friends the last few weekends and lots of people told me I sang really well so I might sing some more in Public but I don't know, I'm really shy... but whatever, I gotta go watch Dylan's practice tonight. Love ya Mia! Hope you're enjoying yourself up there wherever the hell you may be, beautiful. 
         xoxo Abby"

*Two years later* 

"Mia. I made a big mistake. I think this is gonna be the last entry I write to you, well for you anyways.. 
      I told you in my last entry about Dylan. Yeah.. that night I gave him my "everything apparently, he didn't use a condom or anything.. He had to move away, back in with his family in Canada, a few weeks after we had sex. A few more weeks after he moved and there was no way of contacting him, I began getting morning sickness.. I checked and I checked and I checked. I peed on a freaking stick Mia! Five times! I peed on five sticks and they all came up positive!
      I had to drop out of High-school the beginning of my Senior year to support. I couldn't afford to get an abortion. After I told mom and dad, they kinda like disowned me as their daughter... Mom had a miscarriage of the baby that she was going to have a couple of years ago, I don't know if I told you that or not but whatever. I had a beautiful baby girl and guess what her name is! I named her after you Mia. Her name is Mia Kate. Kate is obviously a middle name.

     I live with one of my senior friends, Jessica, that has an apartment. She watches Mia at night when I'm working. Basically, I work the corners and at a strip club called, "George's Palace". We wear skimpy clothes and it just feels awkward to have money shoved into your cooch.
      Yeah... life kinda sucks, I really would have repeated what you had done, what I don't know,  five or six years ago?, if it weren't for my perfect girl. 
 I love her more than life itself nowadays. When I was thirteen, I would've never imagined my life to turn out how it is now. Wow... 
Well.. I better go. I miss you so much Mia. Think of you everyday. Love you. Hope you enjoy yourself.
                                     xoxo Abby"