The center of a dark snow storm (jack x pitch)

CH.24: please Remember, for the night.(smut at end of chapter)

Note: listen to song up top. This chapter will contain smut and mixed feelings and maybe trigger warnings. And its a super long chapter.

Previously in CH.23:

Having a pregnant wife without me by her side because i was on duty most of the time. Marry being pregnant while being so very sick, being alone i saw the negative emotions in her eyes Everytime i came home weeks to months at a time. But when it was time for her to give birth i took a few weeks off to be there for her remembering her almost dying while giving birth. I used everything i had to heal her to make sure she didn't die on me and having being unconscious for over a week didn't do much help.

I had to go back on duty a few days later, i wished I could of fully been there with her for my newborn daughter but i couldn't i had to make sure they were safe. I knew my marriage was slightly falling apart because of me not being there but i still saw the love in her eyes Everytime i got home. And now i also see love in Jack's eyes just buried underneath everything else i see. And seeing that makes my heart race, and ache.

Damnit why can't my life be easy for once.

(Back to story Jack's pov)

It's been few days and Christmas is in just 3 days. And just yesterday Manny announced a new guardian, which was a shock to all of us and let's just say it was a great time, not.

(Flash back)

Kozmotis had been getting out his room more taking in all the new thing's from North's place. I keep wanting to call him pitch but he's not pitch anymore so i call him kozmotis even if it hurts. He's been distant and all military act on everyone. I think he's trying to act normal the way he knows how and not show he's upset with everything. I caught him glare at bunny a few times, which would be funny even he didn't give me the mean look as well. But i did make him sleep on ice even though it was made for bunny.

Pranks is how i cope with things helps me hide my feelings when I'm like this just like it seems acting all cold stoik military warrior is his. He wears his armor all the time and when he walks his backs always straight he holds so much power in his stance he also holds his hands behind his back. Pitch must got that from him as well i can see subtle similarities from the two, the few times he acted normal around me you know just letting go of his act reminded me of pitch a few times.

I'm thinking if the fearlings took over kozmotis and erased all his memories but not his personality or not all of it anyway kozmotis acts all high and mighty sometimes but then again pitch did as well. Ugh this is confusing it's like i see pitch him kozmotis but it was possible it was actually kozmotis i saw in pitch it's like they were almost completely different people but same body. And since I'm pregnant with pitchs, his oh god theirs technically kozmotis kids since it's his body.

But he doesn't remember me or any of pitchs memories he doesn't have any feelings for me the way pitch does, did. All that's gone, and all i can see is his love for his wife and daughter from the golden age. I don't know how much more i can take of THIS it hurts to damn much. And I'm afraid of telling him about me and pitchs relationship i mean i can't just say "hey so you or rather pitch and i were lovers and I'm pregnant with his/your kids". Can't give him that bombshell of news who knows how he'd react especially with all that's going on all the new information he's been receiving and trying to digest.

I thought of all this all day until the guardians told all of us even kozmotis to come to the meeting room. It feels so damn awkward being near him. But when we entered there was a chubby little man in all white there talking with the guardians.

Uh guys who's that guy?

North- this jack is Manny.

Seriously this little man in white is Manny seriously the man the the moon!?