YEAR OF THE UNSTABLE
cw - description of sexual assault and marijuana use
i was assaulted by a guy i thought i could trust. i didn't realize it was assault until about 2 months ago.
Junior year
Winter
I got high
With a guy named X
X sexually assault me
He thought
He assumed
He believed
That me being high
Was a yes
That me being high
Was consent
That me not giving him an answer
Was the go ahead
He choked me
Tried to coerce me into calling him daddy
He stuck his fingers in me
He prodded
He probed
He didn't stop
Despite my eyes closing
Despite me being nonverbal
Despite the lack
Of the word 'yes'
It was as if
he thought I was conscious
It was as if
He thought we were having a conversation
A one sided conversation
I stuffed that sweatshirt so far down into my closet
That even the spider living there
Is unable to find it
That sweatshirt
That once held good memories
Is now a reminder
Of me being used
Me being sexually assaulted
Me not giving consent
I remember it
As if I were looking at myself
From somewhere else
As if I were looking at a screen
Playing a video game
With no way
of getting back to the Home Screen
written: april 2, 2021 at 12:30 am
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unkempt soul
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