My first love 'Ryan azngami'

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Pushing the cart around the grocery store, I was mindlessly looking over the different options of ramen. Bae went shopping for cutlery and other things for the house. It was good because I just needed some time to myself.

My mind kept winding up on Ryan every time I tried to focus on something different. I miss him, I really do and my heart still aches thinking about how we left off. I've come to realize that I do have a bad habit of giving myself off to men. I do it so mindlessly that I don't realize it. Thinking back to me crying, I really didn't even try and think how Ryan felt. Not sure if he is as bummed as me, is it wrong to kinda wish he was?

Throwing a few packs of ramen into the cart, I quickly finished shopping and headed home. Coming into the house, the light were all off indicating bae was still out. I put the groceries away and sat down on the couch.

Pulling my phone from my pocket, I laid down on my side and swiped through the pictures of me and Ryan. This is gonna be a very long year..

— time skip 11 months 😭 sorry —

I ended up flying back to Florida last night. Bae met his true love in Korea and moved in with her. I was so happy seeing the two of them together. They looked so happy and that made my heart warm. Since I was living by myself, I became extremely bored with school and stuff. I finished off my last semester and instead of staying the last month I went back home.

I stayed at a hotel until the next morning. Once i arrived at my old house, I smiled and ran up to the door. Ringing the doorbell, I anxiously stood waiting for someone to answer the door. "ANGELICA!!" Mateo exclaimed as he jumped into my arms. I laughed and picked him up, hugging him tightly. My mom and dad came out and embraced me in a hug.

They ushered me into the house and sat me down on the couch. "I thought you were saying until January?" My dad question as he sat down on the couch across from me. Mateo sat in my lap and turned my head, he gasped and smiled. "Wah your hair is red Angie." Smiling at his excitement, I nodded.

"I wanted to leave, it was getting boring being on my own. Plus, I loved it there but I just missed my family so much." I said pinching Mateo's cheeks. He giggled and pushed my hands away. "I would've thought you would have gone back to LA with your brothers." My mom said as she set her coffee cup down.

"I'm gonna head there today, I just wanted to stop in and see you guys. I flew in last night but it was really late and I knew you guys were already in bed." Mateo hopped off my lap and into our moms. "Well, I'm happy you stopped to see us baby." My dad added as he stood up and hugged me again. "When's you flight angie?" Mateo asked as he played on our moms phone.

Looking down at the time on my phone I sighed. "I have to be at the airport in a hour." My dad ruffled my hair and grabbed his keys. "Come on ill drive you, you guys coming." He turned and looked at the other two. They nodded and quickly slipped their shoes and things on.

Hugging me goodbye, I walked down to my planes gate and boarded the plane. I was to anxious to sleep, so I stayed awake the whole flight.

And now I'm standing in front of the house I wanted to be at the least. After finally contouring up the courage to go in, I closed the door behind me. I kicked my shoes off and pulled my things to my room. The house was rather quiet, so I assume they're all out doing something idiotic.

I went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water, taking small sips as i scrolled through social media. The sound of the front door opening and the shouts of a hoard of boys coming in pulled my attention away from my phone.

The first person to see me was regie, he froze for a moment before running over to me picking me up and spinning me around. "Yo never leave like that again bro,, I missed you too much shawty." I chuckled and hugged him back. "I missed you too idiot." The other boys almost had the same reaction as regie, instead I was tackled by Darren and bear hugged by Kane.