When I was younger, the day before Clover moved away I told Clover I liked her. I want to marry her. We were at the tree swing saying our last goodbyes before she had to move. I remember how I feel that day. I was nervous. I was scared of what she would say.
"I like you."
Clover laughed, "I like you too."
"Not like that. I want to marry you. Five years from now let's get married."
She didn't laugh this time, "I don't like you like that now, but I believe with time that can change. If you are willing to wait, maybe I can like you too."
I take out the rings, "You promise you will think about it?"
"Of course, cowboy." She turns around so I can put on the necklace. "Next time we meet, maybe I'll give you one and I'll keep the other one. Just maybe."
"Thank you." That was the last conversation we had in person. It wasn't until she showed up again, she had grown up, we both had.
I don't bother knocking, I enter the house as if my life depended on it. "Clover!" I call out her name throughout the house. I need to see her. I make my way to her room but stop for a moment to recollect myself. Before opening the door, inside me, there is an unsettling feeling.
I open the door slowly, I know I am not ready to face what I am about to encounter. I look around and see don't see Clover. But I know she was here because all of her belongings are now nowhere to be seen. I walk over to her dressing table and see what I feared most. The necklace with two rings. Beside it, there's a letter with my name on it. I swallow and read vigorously.
Dear, Austin
You asked me why I came back after all this time. My answer was simple, honest, and true. I didn't leave New York because I love it, but because I believed one day you would come to me. I never doubt for a second that you would come. But now I know I was wrong.
Talking to you and calling you was the joy of my life, but I realize now it was never yours. I came back to XXX place for one reason. My reason was you. Even if I couldn't return your feelings back then, I wanted to give you a chance, to help me fall for you, as you told me you felt for me.
I've realized you don't feel the same. At least not anymore. All I want you to know is that the person I wanted to spend the rest of my life was here in XXXX place. The person I always loved has and was only you. That promise we made at the tree spot, I kept it. But most of all I meant it. I told you that day I had no feelings for you but I was open to change that one day I could. You were the only person in my mind, when something sad or happy happened in my life, I wanted to call you. And I did. I tried many times. All this time, I thought I had to try to reach you but now I know that you never tried to reach me. Instead, you forgot me. You erased me. Most of all you replaced me.
You were always in my mind. But I was never in yours. I realized I can not make you happy. I hope you can find the person you want to share these rings with. I wish you the best. That you may find what you are looking for and be happy.
Your same and always,
Allie
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Born to Ride
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