The Friend and The Breakup

All is good...

We sat there on the bench. Cuddling. And looking into the sun going down. All is good right now. I'm happy again and I hope she is too. My life is perfect right now, I'm back with my girlfriend, I've got a trial at Arsenal for goalkeeper in a few days too. I have the chance of having a great football career with the team I love.

I'm just about to tell her about me trials, but before I could, her best friends came along. Louise, Victoria and Bailey. Louise says,
"Are you two back together?!?!"
"Yes we are." She sais,
"Awwww OMG you guys are so cute together."
"Thank you." She replied. They walked of and I looked at my watch,
"It's 2 o'clock, we have to go back into lessons."
"Ok. I'll see you around." We hugged and walked off.

A few days later it was my trial at Arsenal, I was so excited and so nervous. I wanted to do so well so then I get to go on and be a part of the Arsenal youth academy and have a future in football.
I arrived at the training ground full of excitement. I saw all of my favourite players. Ozil, Sanchez, Ramsey, Giroud, Cazorla and Wilshire. I was amazed I saw these amazing footballers. I got a few pictures with them too. A goalkeeper coach talked me through what I have to do to pass.

A few hours later I had my medical. It didn't end well. They found about my condition I had when I was born. When I was born, my lungs wasn't properly developed so that affects my breathing and my stamina in sport. When they found out I thought they won't allow me into the academy, but they still offered me a contract! I was amazed and excited. This is the start of something new. All is good.

I signed my 5-year contract with the club and I was absolutely buzzing with excitement. I walked outside and called her,
"Hey babe, I've signed for Arsenal!"
"WOW! IM SO PROUD OF YOU BABY! This is going to lead to massive things for you!"
"I know it will. I can't believe it!"
"Same here. I've got to go now. Congratulations baby. I love you."
"Thanks babe. Talk later. I love you too."

My life is just going great now. Signed for Arsenal, my girlfriend loves me. I'm just in heaven again. My first game for the club is in a week against Liverpool youths.

Match day today. It came so quickly, to think I signed last week is unbelievable and I'm being played today! I'm just lost for words right now on how I've been given my chance in football.
The first half kicked off, we went on the attack. The winger doing all fancy skills to get past the defender. He whips the ball in, a good header and we'll surely score, and we did! 1-0 to the Arsenal youth. The crowd went crazy and so did I!
We went in at half time 1-0, I was still nervous even tho Liverpool haven't had a chance to attack yet. Before I knew it, it was time for the second half to kick off. Straight from kick off, Liverpool had an attack. The centre attacking mid for Liverpool made an amazing run through our midfield and our defence thinking he's Messi. I was left with a one on one situation. I came out the goal and onto the edge of my area and made a crunching slide tackle, but the ball landed to Liverpool's winger. I quickly got back in my goal and made a diving save to my left and the ball went out for a corner. I got a standing ovation.
The ball was whipped in and it was an amazing header from the Liverpool defender but it hit the bar.
We held the ball from there on in, passing it around, making the opposition tired. Full time whistle blown. We won 1-0 for my debut! I was ecstatic that we won! First game, first win. COME ON YOU GUNNERS!

We all went on the changing rooms celebrating like we've won a cup final! I checked my phone and saw I got a text from my girlfriend,
'Congratulations for the win baby! I'm waiting outside to celebrate with you'
I told my team mates,
"Sorry lads, I've got to go and celebrate with my girl. Great win tho! See you in training tomorrow!"
"See ya mate, great performance by you!" My team mates replied,
I ran outside of the ground and saw her. But she was with someone. It couldn't be. Is it? Is that my friend I got in argument with? And there kissing... My heart just dropped and broke on the floor... It feels like I've just been stabbed in the heart repeatedly, but I had to do something, so I shouted at him,
"HEY! WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOURE DOING WITH MY GIRL?! GET THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!"
They both jumped with shocked and he ran as fast as he could, but I ran faster, I caught up with him and pushed him on the floor,
"WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU KISSING HER?"
"I CAN DO THE FUCK I LIKE!" He shouted in reply. I repeatedly punched him around the face,
"STOP! STOP! PLEASE JUST STOP!" She said sadly. I didn't listen to her and punched him one last time. I got up off him and said angrily,
"Now get the fuck out of my sight."
He stood up and ran as fast as he possibly could. I stood there, breathing deeply. She then came up to me,
"You shouldn't of done that. I'm scared of you now. We're done."
I said nothing in reply, just stood there. She walked off, sobbing all most about to break down.
I feel to my knees and started to cry. I've lost her again. That is truly the last chance I've had, and it's about to get even worse. I felt a hand on my shoulder. It was my manager, he said softly,
"I can't take that behaviour. Assaulting a fan is not acceptable. We don't tolerate that. I'm terminating your contact. You are now a free agent. Good luck."
He got in his car and drove off. I've just lost my girlfriend and lost my chance of every playing professional football. My heart was just on the ground.
All isn't good...

1 month later. I still haven't managed to get over what happened. I was diagnosed with depression and I've been ignored in school since. I've now turned to be a regular self harmer and a day doesn't go past thinking about ending it all. I have no chance with anyone anymore and I've haven't got a career anymore, since I've been failing in school. I can't seem to take this anymore. I've got no energy left in me and the knife is becoming more and more tempting. No one will miss me right? Since I have no friends and no career. No one wants to help me anymore. Yea I think I will. I should. I send a group message to everyone in my year saying,
"Bye guys. I'll see you in 70 years..."
2 hours later, I didn't get a reply from anyone. So it's decided. Bathtub and radio.
I got in the tub slowly and thinking what I was about to do. Is this right or wrong? Well I still got in and turned on the radio. Tuned it to my favourite station and layed there for a bit. I got the scissors and put it near the rope. And I was just about to cut it but then I heard it. The song.
"I wish I can wake up with amnesia, and forget about this stupid little thi-." Cut. Gone. All is good again...

End

IMPORTANT: I AM NOT SUICIDAL! IT FLOWED WITH THE STORY!

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