𝐆𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐍

ricky's goodbye

→ 𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐘'𝐒 𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐁𝐘𝐄

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a week, after 17 year old ricky bowen passed away,

he was a bright student, he made everyone laughed. he was even one of the most loved students.

spirit ricky walked through the corridors of east high, looking at all the students as they walked past him.

he looked down the hall, to see the man of the hour, the person who made him want to kill himself, his secret boyfriend, ej caswell.

the baseball player, was talking to his friends, dully, he wasn't really laughing along with them.

he was numb.

ricky walked up to him, and tried to place his hand on the senior's shoulder, but he was dead, his hand went right through.

ricky stared up and down at ej, seeing him not being himself today.

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ricky walked up to his locker before he died, with roses and hearts, but one word caught his eye. 'FAGGOT' written in a deep red marker.

he teared up at the fact of someone writing something like that about him, knowing that he's gone, he can't come back nor can he defend himself.

he harshly wiped his tears, and walked past the auditorium, he peeked through the window to see, his best friend big red, sitting on the floor, with his knees to his chest.

it stung ricky's heart, knowing he can't be with them, to comfort them in any way.

he walked past, each and every corridor in the school.

he stopped at a corner, spotting his dear ex/best friend, nini looking at his locker, breaking down in front of it.

he really missed his friends,

"why did i kill myself..?" ricky asked himself.

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the memories of him and ej went they used to sneak out into the locker room to make out with each other.

ricky snuck up behind ej, while the older had a towel wrapped around his waist, as he had just got done showering.

"hey." ricky said to his boyfriend.

"hey, you." ej kissed ricky's lips. ricky chuckled and decided to make the kiss deeper, pulling ej closer by his wet naked torso.

lips to lips.

tongue to tongue.

body to body.

ricky remembered it like it was just yesterday, when ej told him, he loved him.

"but i don't wanna be seen as the gay theater geek." ej said frustratingly.

"okay but you are, listen if you have to, just break up with me now, so you won't have to be." ricky said almost shouting his voice.

"h-hey, don't be like that, look i want us to be together. i want you, ricky... i love you."

ricky looked up at him, with a annoyed face but soon softened as he heard the 3 words, that held so much power in a relationship.

"y-you love me..?"

"yes, okay yes i do. i'm willing to make us work."

"okay.." ricky said. "i love you too."

ricky was an idiot when he felt for ej's words, ej would still cheat and kiss other girls at school, and house parties. he looked in the mirror in bathroom and started to break everything.

taking his anger out on himself, for falling for such stupid words, he screamed as he cried sliding down the bathroom stall.

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he walked into the locker room, where he heard the shower running.

he walked inside, his silent tiny foot steps hurled on the tiles in the room.

he looked forward to see ej fully clothed sitting under the shower head, crying.

"ricky, why?" the boy cried, the dead junior's lip quivered at the sight, as he walked to sit beside the senior, under the shower head.

he leaned his head on ej's shoulder, looking down at his hands, seeing him holding the same baseball, he signed his number on, when ej asked him out.

"so um, do you wanna hang out sometime?" ej asked the shorter boy in front of him.

"oh sure, i don't have anything planned, how does Saturday sound?" ricky smiled at the jock.

"sounds great, i'll pick you up then, 7, sound about good?"

"yeah."

"uuh, can you give me your number-" ej was cut off as ricky grabbed his baseball, before clicking his pen, writing on it.

he handed it back to ej, after winking.

"that's my number, call me." ricky said blushing with his cheeky smile.

"that i will do."

his eyes started to tear up, as he remembered the day, he reached down and grabbed ej's hand, also feeling ej squeezing his hand back.

ej turned to face him saying "goodbye, ricky."

→ ❝𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐢 𝐰𝐚𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐥𝐞𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐞, 𝐝𝐨𝐞-𝐞𝐲𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐦𝐞, 𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞, 𝐟𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐛𝐥𝐨𝐨𝐝𝐲.❞

what do think the ending of this oneshot mean..?

i was very scared writing this, because it's kinda dark and sad.

word count: 807.

hope ur ok <3