SACRED - JIKOOK

CONFESSION BOOTH

The two younger men began the kids service together but Jungkook was mostly out of it. All he could think about was the confession booth. The fear he felt was so incredibly strong he thought he might vomit. Especially when they where currently going over being gay as a sin with the children.

"What does that mean Mr.Jimin?" The little boy asked, "yknow.. the men shall not lay with men?" He asked. Jimin visibly gulped and awkwardly chuckled. "Well.. it means that.. a man can't feel the way for a man the way we're supposed to with women.. that they can't kiss or get married. It is a sin in the eyes of the lord." He explained, nodding to himself. Jungkook's heart practically broke.

He knew that Christian people where not fond of those who where queer in any sense of the term and yet somehow he'd hoped Jimin would be different. The two of them had gotten so close in the past few days and Jimin had seemed to accept him with open arms, no matter what. Jungkook realized he must have been mistaken. Hoseok was right. Jimin is not gay and Jungkook is going to embarrass himself with the way he's doing things.

"Ah I understand. Like how Yirin is my girlfriend!" He said. Jimin smiled, "that's right buddy. You can have a girlfriend but not a boyfriend." He said softly. The words made Jungkook shudder. "Anyways, kids. We are having a confession booth today! Do any of you know what that is?" He asked the children.

"Oh oh I know!" A little girl named Jiyun said, raising her hand quite obnoxiously. "Yes, Jiyun?" Jimin called, indicating her to speak. "It's when you confess your sins to a priest to send the confession to god and ask for forgiveness!" She said excitedly. "That's right! We're having one today. I will be helping my father as I'm in training to be a pastor myself. I'll be in one of the booths so please everyone participate!" He called happily.

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Jungkook stood in the second line with shaking hands. He wasn't sure which park was behind this booth but he hoped it was Jimin's father instead of Jimin. Still, it was almost his turn. Two more people and then he had to go. He knew what he had to confess, he wondered if it would make him feel better to let him out. It wasn't like they could see him. So it would be fine.

He felt his foot tapping rapidly and nervously against the tile floors as he waited, his teeth tugged and nipped at his piercing from behind his quivering lips. He was deep in thought, unable to relax his rapidly beating heart. Before he knew it, it was his turn. He stepped into the booth and took a deep breath.

It was dark, a black room. Only a dingy lightbulb illuminating the square walls and small bench he was required to sit in. Slowly, nervously, he sat down. He gulped harshly, his Adam's apple timidly rising and falling on his neck as he grasped the fabric of his pants. He was too afraid to speak, unable to begin the conversation. Until.

"Please speak. Tell me of your sins.." the voice called softly. Jungkook's eyes widened and he looked up at the wall, his heart beating in his ears. That was Jimin's voice. He knew it was him. The gentle high pitch that spoke through the thin wall next to him was impossible not to recognize.

Jungkook cleared his throat and looked up to the ceiling. At least this way he would be able to confess to Jimin without him really knowing. It would let up some of the pressure in his chest. He just had to say it. Say the two words and he would feel free. He closed his eyes and breathed a calming sigh before dropping his head to the floor.

"I'm gay."

Silence. He was met with a petrifying silence. He knew Jimin didn't really know what to say so he decided to continue, finish the rest of his confession. "I'm gay and.. I'm in love with my.. uh.. friend. I'm pretty sure he's straight but.. no matter what I do he is all I think about." He admitted gently.

He smiled to himself, picking at the holes in his black jeans. "His smile is beautiful.. his eyes are sweet but sharp.. his laugh sounds like angels singing.. his voice makes me the calmest I've ever been in my life. And.. his kindness. He is the kindest, most selfless person I've ever met. He's the only one who has accepted me for who I am... except he doesn't know I'm gay."

He frowned deeply before continuing, "he doesn't know and I don't think he approves of gay people. I love him.. so much. He must never know though... because loosing him? Would kill me." He huffed at the end of his speech. It felt good to finally admit all of his feelings to him.

"I see." Jimin said from the other side. Jungkook didn't miss the disappointed tone and awkward shake in his voice. "I'm glad you confessed. God will fix you. You will not be sick forever.. the lord will repent you and you will be saved for your sin. You will be forgiven. Eventually." He said. His voice sounded uncharacteristically malice, which caused Jungkook to shutter with pain.

"What do you suggest I do, then?" Jungkook asked, trying to shop his voice from shaking to no avail. There was silence for a moment. A short moment that felt like years. "Never speak to him again. If you aren't careful you could taint him with the sin... or tempt yourself. Remove him from your life and focus on god. It's the best way to help you.. to save you." He said.

Jungkook let out a heavy sigh, feeling tears leak from his eyes. His hands had begun to shake as he gripped his knees. It was painful. It was so painful to hear Jimin say that. To hear him suggest that. Especially when knowing if Jimin knew he was talking to the younger boy he was so fond of.. he'd never speak to him again.

That was the moment Jungkook decided that he would never allow Jimin to know that he was gay.