SACRED - JIKOOK

DISCOVERIES

Jimin stared at Jungkook's mother with his mouth hanging open. Having no idea what to say to her. "Jungkook. Did you do this?? Did you make him like this?" She yelled. Jimin was flabbergasted. How was he supposed to react in a situation like this? "No!" Jimin called out, "I just wanted a change.. my dad likes it." He said softly. Not wanting to get a bad word about her to the priest she gave him a fake smile. "Oh. I see." It sounded like honey but Jimin knew there was malice behind it.

The two went up to Jungkook's room and Jimin frowned deeply. "Does she.. always speak to you like that?" He asked softly. "No." He replied, to which Jimin sighed in relief. It was short lived however when Jungkook finished the sentence, "it's usually worse. A lot more screaming and hitting." Jimin frowned deeply in distaste and gently hugged Jungkook. "I wanted to ask you something, Hyung." The younger stated, looking at him calmly.

"What is it?" He shorter asked, his head slightly tilted to the side. "Why have you suddenly wanted to do all these changes?" He asked. Jimin sighed and sat down on Jungkook's bed, his body falling back onto the mattress. "I don't know." He answered truthfully, looking up at the ceiling. "For some reason.. lately I've been.. thinking.." Jungkook turned to face him, his expression gentle. "About what?" Jimin snickered a little. "Myself." Jungkook's confused silence ran through the room until Jimin spoke up again.

"I think.. I've been pushing my true self away all this time. Hiding and.. not being who I really am. I don't wanna be a boring church guy with no personality." He admitted, shocking the other man. "I've always wanted tattoos, and piercings and.. I want to be a dancer so bad." He says gently. Jungkook was taken aback by his honesty. He's never admitted something like that to him before. "Don't get me wrong. I'm still religious.. and I still love god but that's not the problem. I think I.. don't love myself enough."

Jungkook stood from his desk and walked over to where Jimin was, laying on his back next to him. "That happened to be when I.." he trailed off, not sure if he should bring this topic up once again. Jimin looked over, their faces close. "When you what..?" He whispered. The dark haired male softly gasped and averted his eyes while his face turned red. "When I.. when I realized I was gay." Jimin gulped but allowed him to continue. "I didn't have crushes on girls. And.. had those feelings for boys. I wanted to hold their hands and kiss them and be close to them." He whispered.

"I never felt that way for girls. I kept asking my parents when I would start liking girls and they always said "soon." But soon never came.. so when I kissed a boy and liked it. Everything spiraled from there." He said. Suddenly he heard sniffles and soft whimpers from beside him. He sat up and looked at the blonde in a panic. "J-Jimin..? What's wrong..?" He asked, seeing the other cry. His crush looked up at him with big and teary eyes, his chin wobbling. "J-Jungkook.. a-am I gay..?" He asked in a hushed whisper.

Jungkook was taken aback. His eyes where wide and his chest ached. At first he didn't know what to say because he never expected Jimin to ask him that question. Finally he took a deep breath, "do you think you might be?" He asked in a very gentle voice. Jimin let out a little sob. "I-I don't know it's just.. the things you described are how I feel about girls and.. how I feel about..." he looked away, not sure if he should break the ice. "Tell me Jimin." Jungkook said in a gentle but firm tone. Jimin looked back up at him, he looked so pretty like this.

"That's how I feel about you."

The taller man felt like he'd just been shot right in the heart with one of cupids arrows. "D-does that mean I'm gay..?" He whispered, finally knocking the sense back into Jungkook's body. "N-no.. not exactly. You still might not like being intimate with men.. so.." he rubbed his neck awkwardly, feeling insecure in the conversation. Suddenly, Jimin sat up, leaning very close to Jungkook's face. "Then kiss me." He said, very serious and looking very confident. "W-what?" Jungkook asked, his house cracking in shock.

Jimin grabbed the other man by his collar, pulling him closer. "I said kiss me, Jungkook." He felt like he was dreaming. His crush was actually asking to kiss him. "Are you.. a-are you sure Jimin..?" He asked. Jimin nodded with a hum. "As long as you promise not to tell anyone.." he whispered. "I pinkie promise."

"Then kiss me."

He wasted no more time and grabbed Jimin's face, touching their lips together and closing his eyes. At fist Jimin felt strange. It was his first kiss. And it was with a man. It was kind of awkward and uncomfortable for the first few seconds but when the feeling of warmth of Jungkook's lips on his finally hit him he leaned into it, his eyes fluttering shut, unable to help it. Jungkook moved his hands down to Jimin's waist and pulled the smaller man onto his lap, Jimin putting his arms around his neck in response.

After a minute or two, the both pulled away, huffing, puffing and heaving while they looked at each other. Once again, Jungkook panicked when he saw tears streaming down Jimin'a face. Fat tears rolling down his cute cheeks. He softly wiped his tears away, worried if he'd taken it too far and scared the boy. "Why are you crying..?" He whispered. Swallowing the lump in his throat and getting ready to leave if he asked him too.

"I.. I am crying because.. I am gay."