I feel numb.
I don't think that I deserve this but I don't know.
I might deserve it for staying when I've made up my mind long ago that I don't love him anymore.
He kept on pushing me & now everything is going wrong.
He knew that this fantasy of his wasn't working but he wanted it for himself.
I've only ever wanted to love & to be loved but that's not happened.
I have loved the wrong person.
I can see that now but I'm still here.
