Sometimes I want to bleed,
To feel the red running down my flesh
Sometimes I want to bleed,
Because I already feel dead
But I won't bleed
So it's fine if you hurt me
I won't feel
When you leave me
............
2 weeks later
Zayn's pov:
"Sam, I know something's wrong."
He avoided to look me in the eyes.And stare at the ground.
"Tell me.what's wrong?" I was prepared for bad news I know something bad gonna happened.
"Well, um... cops kinda know that we killed Robert and Bryant and all of his guards zayn. They know and I know who did this...."
I huffed walking around the room. I exactly knew too. It's obvious.
"How much time do I have?" I asked hopelessly. I knew it was too good to stay forever. My past finally came after me.
".....well to be realistic, not much like 2 or 3 days.but every second is important. They just need a little evidence. This time we can't get over it by money. We killed people."
My sweet dreams turned into bitter realistic life.
" I don't care about myself;I just want Harry to be safe and out of all this things please look after him?"
I was completely giving up.
"The hell man? You're not gonna die." He said jokingly.
"Just promise me sam.."I looked at him hopefully.
"Alright. I promise. Now let's find somewhere to go." I nodded and find my way to Harry's room.
Knocking two times.
"Yeah?"
"Can I come in ma fée?" I was trying to look cool and chose my words.
I opened the door slowly,his beauty in my sight and me getting speechless again and again.
You are the poem I'm trying to write
A book I wanna read
A song I like to sing
The way I wanna live
The faith I wanna believe
The love I wanna give
I sat slowly in front of the green-eyed fairytale, took a deep breath,
"Babe...," once more look deep into his emerald green eyes and throw my gaze on light blue sheets, holding his hands and locked them with mine." Damiano told everything to the cops..." I looked up again to see his shocked expression.
"What? He told what?" Another deep breath.
"About me killing Robert, and Bryant's guards and all..." glassy eyes.
"So..so what will happen? You're gonna leave me?" Painful sobs,
"Babe what? No..,"smiled a bitter one."I'm not gonna leave you. At all." I pulled his shaky body into a tight hug. Drown him in kisses.
His weak punches on my chest,
"You are leaving me...." I brushed a few of his curls,
"No. We will leave together,alright? Together."
He was breathing hardly, so I gave him some water,"Babeh, calm down.get some rest okay? I'm here baby boy..." I placed him on bed and layed beside him, wrapped my arm around his cold body. A few little kisses in the back of his neck.
Thinking about where I can probably go without problem...
Eyelids getting heavy. Sleep..those little deaths.
.......
After the short comforting nap, life began again.
"Sam, one more time, you will leave here to Manchester in case someone following us; me and Harry will be in my dad's cottage outside the town. You leave first." He just nodded.
I faced the crying Paula," hey you keep the house ready cuz we will back soon. Okay?" I gave him a little smile to promise her it's not the last time. Even though I'm not sure...
"Yes sir."
Harry hugging her tight and joined her sobbing,"pola I will miss you even tho i fucking hate your ugly face."
"Harold. You piece of garbage.I'll miss you."
I cut their drama off," come on, we have to leave."
..........
4 hours later
"Here we are mr. my sanctuary."
He laughed," it's so perfect zayn. I would love to see your dad;you know I have daddy issues right?" He teased.
"Oh now I get it, zaddy..." I close the gap between our lips.
Now I'm afraid of dying
Cause I'll see you crying
Baby I said I won't leave
How can I find a way to live
Mesmerize me with your lips
Let me leave this world,a bit
How long will I can see him? How many more times I can kiss him? Feel him? Touch him?
I'm addicted to him and now I have to leave?
"So yeah my dad built here for him and I..our secret place."
"Interesting; and you bring me here."
"Yeah cause you're the only moon in my night."
He giggled cutely.
"Are you hungry? "
"Much!" He moved his hands excited.
We made dinner together; a disgusting looking spaghetti.
"Will be die if we eat this?" I asked disgusted.
"Probably; but I'm hungry as fuck." And he start to moving his fork .
The smell was weird too.
But it was hella delicious.
.......
His soft yawning filled the silent room .
"Harry? Wanna sleep?" He stare at me with half open eyes,"no, I don't wanna sleep."
"But you look like a zombie?"
"And you still love me." Sassy.
"Come here sleepy head," he jumped from the other couch to my lap, resting his head on my shoulder.
"Zayn?"
"Humm?"
"I'm scared..."
"I'm here. Nothing gonna happened. I kidnapped you after all," I brushed his soft curls.
"Not that, I'm afraid of losing you..."
"I'm not going anywhere." I can promise him that? No.
"Sleep now or we can do..."
"Oh my god. Don't talk you dirty minded."
I laughed and put a small kiss on his hair, continued brushing his hair until his breathing got heavy.
But I couldn't sleep. I won't let anything bad happens to my harreh.
He's so pure. He's an angel.
But I can't give him unsure promises...
Baby don't you know?
I'm not good for you
You're pure, young, alive
I'm guilty, broken, almost died
You have a lifetime ahead
But your love was my last wish in the world
You're an angel
I'm a sin
You're bright
Don't let me bury you in the dark
I'm selfish
We know
So let me let you go
