is it sad that just 4 words can make me so sad and depressed that I just burst out crying and can't stop myself? I always tell people "I'm here for you" but when I read the message to myself the tears just start streaming. nobody is ever there for me. nobody tells me they care. and when I need them and I'm ready to talk, I feel like I just annoy them with my problems.
my own boyfriend teases me with self harm. he tells me that I can't do it then turns around and does it to himself. he's such a damn hypocrite! don't get me wrong, I love him so much, but it's just not fare. I thought we were supposed to be a team, but I guess that means nothing to him. why does he do this to me? he doesn't know, but he's breaking me. and one day I'm going to snap and kill everything in my path, including myself. why does he hurt me, makes me break down and cry? why can't I just be strong? I cry so so much these days, maybe someday I'll drown in my tears.
one day I'm ok, the next I'm considering suicide. I want to hurt myself. feel calm for once and sleep good for just one night, and not cry myself to sleep. I wanna feel ok for once. my emotions are up and down. I can't control it. someone help me. please someone hurry. where is the one who will stop these tears? when will I ever be saved?
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I need help guys. I'm going crazy and I don't think I can do it much longer. please help me...
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Storie brevithese are my feelings that I can't say to someone's face. please don't judge. if you don't like it, then don't read it. WARNING: may be triggering but please don't hurt yourself... please read, comment, vote.. tell me what you think
