I had laid there for about an hour, the warmth of the water was slowly slipping away. My eyes sprung open as the water became too cold to bear with. So I climbed out and grabbed a towel to cover my cold naked body. I pulled out the plug and watched as the water drained; swirling round and round. It was hypnotic.
Once all the water had drained I made my way back to my room; it smelled fresh and the bed was neatly arranged. My mind felt strangely empty and peaceful. I fell onto my clean bed and covered myself with the blankets. I huddled up and slowed my breathing, the warmth and softness embraced me with open arms. My body felt non excitant as I slowly drifted away.
I was yanked back to reality quite harshly, by the thought of my brother… I tried to get out of my blankets but I got tangled in them. I struggled and screamed out in pure panic. Katie ran in and tried to pull the blankets of my franticly moving body without getting hit. “Kaleb! Kaleb! Calm down!! Kaleb!!” She shouted and managed to pull the blankets off. Once my naked body was free I focused on keeping my breathing steady. It took a while for me to calm down, but the emotions were still spiralling out of control. Katie sat by me, facing away from me, she whispered softly, “What happened…?” I stared at the ceiling for a while and slowed my breathing to a reasonable pace, before answering, “I-I think I panicked…”She sighed and replied, “I know that… but why? I-I thought you were so stressed because of me finding out… But your recent behaviour shows that there is something more.” I shook my head, “I repressed the memory.”
“Memory of what?”
“Well I repressed it, so I don’t know.” I replied and slowly sat up. I got changed quickly and then sat next to her. She grabbed onto my hand and just held it, “Kaleb… you can tell me anything…” She murmured. I felt something which was a bit like frustration, “You know my biggest secret but I don’t know yours… So I will only tell you if you tell me something about you.” I retorted. She squeezed my hand and whispered, “But this isn’t about me, I’m not the one who can’t sleep and is too scared to function…” I grew limp and stared at the floor as liquid fell from my eyes. She wrapped her arm around my shoulders and pulled me into her warm body. “I-I… h-he’ll tell everyone… if I say…” I whimpered; I was so confused, I could barely say anything. My words wouldn’t cooperate with me. Katie held me and murmured quietly, “You can tell me… You can trust me, Kaleb. I’m here to help.” Her voice almost sounded sweet… I wasn’t sure what she sounded like but I felt like I could trust her.
I cleared my throat and coughed, “Q-Quinten… he…” I couldn’t get my words out… it was too much. My feelings were doing things I couldn’t understand… “He… raped me…” My cheeks felt hot and flustered. Katie was very quiet, I didn’t know is she heard me, I was going to repeat but I couldn’t. My eyes started to sting pretty badly, I wiped them and felt that they had warm liquid in them, no wonder they were painful. Katie held onto me tighter and whispered, “What a bastard.” My breathing started to go out of control, “P-please don’t say anything… He’ll tell everyone about my secret…” She stirred a bit un-evenly, “No, I will not tell anyone, I promise.” She muttered.
We sat there for a while, not saying anything. I tried to fix the problem with my eyes, but it stopped on its own. After half an hour of just sitting there, Katie got up and said she was going to make some food. I followed her downstairs, but made a detour to the living room. I decided to lie down on the sofa and go back into the state of mind I was in when I was taking a bath. But I was not successful, instead I just stared at the ceiling with thoughts and feelings battling in my head. I could hear the spitting and sizzling of something being cooked in the kitchen. I decided to try and focus on that instead of whatever was happening in my head.
There was a knock at the front door which caught my attention more than it should have. Katie walked towards the door but I couldn’t let her open it so I jumped up quickly and pulled her away from the door. She was about to say something but I wrapped my hand over her mouth. I pulled her down and pressed my head against the door, and listened… waiting for him to leave. I couldn’t hear him, but I didn’t hear his car drive away, so he must still be there.
I was still clutching into Katie’s face when we heard a thud and the clinking of keys. He scraped them across my door before unlocking it. He waited a minute before opening it. He looked down at me and Katie crumpled on the floor, “Brother…? What are you doing?” He asked, I looked at Katie and slowly removed my hand from her face. I was stunned, I couldn’t say a word, but he was waiting for a response. Katie quickly grabbed onto my face and kissed me, she then pulled away and smiled at Quinten, “We were just roleplaying… Kaleb said that no one would be coming over, so sorry you have to see this… I try to be careful to not get caught when I’m working.” She smiled up at Quinten then grabbed onto my groin. Quinten’s eyes seemed to pop at this sudden groping. Katie just stared at him until he decided to say something, “I didn’t know Kaleb was into you that way… Last time I checked he was not into sex.” He glared at me, I felt hot, as if his eyes were burning me. “I-I wanted to see what the big deal about sex was…” I muttered. Katie nodded and the said, “So if you please… I would like to finish my job. Give us two hours.” Quinten didn’t look happy at all but he nodded and closed the door. We didn’t move until we heard his car drive away. I pulled Katie’s hand of my groin and got up slowly. My body was shaking as I peered out of the window. I had to make sure that he had gone completely. “What are we going to do for two hours…?” Katie asked. “Find a way to stop him coming back.” I muttered and walked back into the living room. I sat myself down on the sofa and stared at the floor. Katie joined me but after a while she remembered that she was cooking so she quickly rushed of. After half an hour, she came back in with two plates full of food. She placed mine on the side table near me and then sat down to start and eat hers.
I picked at mine but I didn’t have much of an appetite at that point. “You’re not hungry?” She asked while shovelling food in her mouth. I shook my head, I had to find a way to stop my brother from coming back to my house. I was scared, I think that was what it was, but I wasn’t too sure, I kept shaking and breathing out of sequence. Katie kept glancing over at me, “It won’t be that bad, I’m sure I’ll be able to stay while he’s here.” She smiled at me a little bit. I shot a glare at her, “Just because you’re here doesn’t mean it’s going to be alright!” I sneered. I cuddled up into a ball in the corner of the sofa. I tried to steady myself but there was no use. Katie had finished her food and took her plate away. She then returned and sat back down, doing nothing. We should have been planning to stop my brother coming back, but we didn’t. We just waited.
