✔︎ SLOWLY • jake

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"why do you like me?" jake asked with narrowed eyes.

"because i've always seen you as something you no longer are."

"you don't know me, we've only met a year ago."

"you're right, i don't know you. and that's exactly why i wanted to come inside of your heart.. to learn everything about you."

the girl slowly leaned in,

and i waited for jake to push her back.

he was always fast, never hesitant.

but..

why didn't he push her back?

my eyes widened.

and before their lips could even touch,

my feet dragged me away from them.

why? why? why?

tears won't stop falling from my eyes.

i'm upset at jake.

i hate myself.

why do i have to die?

sadness took over my mind when i saw jake coming back with the girl—

who had a bright smiling face.

my eyes went blank,

as i stared off into nothing.

before i could even notice the clock ticking,

everyone was already going home,

including jake too.

i followed him to his car with a heavy heart and as usual,

i sat in the passenger seat.

but instead of driving me off,

he randomly browsed on his phone—

what is he doing?

why isn't he driving back home yet?

i asked myself,

but if only i knew the answer would come to me like a bullet shot straight into my heart—

i wouldn't have been so curious.

there in the distance, walked the pretty girl from earlier.

she was nearing our car,

and only for a second did i hope she just parked her car near us.

but no,

she walked straight and towards the car.

she's outside, beside the passenger seat window.

i widened my eyes in disbelief as i heard jake unlock the car door.

i immediately went to the back seat, and watched how the girl took my place.

"let's go."

chaewon stared at jake with loving eyes,

her lips and eyes forming a crescent shape as she smiled sweetly.

"jake..." my voice cracked as i tried to conceal my feelings.

but why would i?

they can never see me.

jake,

i thought i was the only girl you'd let in your passenger seat.

i thought you told me that your 'let's go.' phrase was supposedly only for me to hear,

and i thought you said my lips are the only ones that could touch yours,

so why would you let someone else do these things with you?

your heart is my home, my place.

but I guess this is a sign to move out of it now.