Hostages

Author's Note: Zayn Malik Rant

Sorry, this isn't another chapter or anything really to do with Hostages, but this whole Zayn thing has made me go absolutely crazy. I'm actually mad. All day at school, I didn't know because I don't have my phone and I don't really talk to anyone so I didn't hear until I got home. I was in my kitchen where my sister's friend told me he left. At first, I was like 'bullshit, it's just rumors', but then I got on Twitter, and my feed EXPLODED. It was everywhere. I got so mad. After sitting downstairs with my mom for a bit, I needed to rage and be alone, so I went to my room and typed up a letter and here, I just want you guys to read this.

Dear Zayn Malik,

Hi, Zayn. I'm a fan. I have been for about three years now. Recently, I have heard you left the band. To be completely honest, I think what you're doing is completely selfish and stupid. You don't know what you're doing Zayn and I'm here to tell you from a fan's perspective of this.

First of all, you said that you were leaving for a stress leave. I was completely okay with that. I was happy for you, really, for doing what you needed to do. I heard that it was only supposed to be a week though, which is understandable. I was thinking 'Oh, okay, it's just a week, no biggie, he's coming back'. Then I get hit with this? NO ZAYN. You were supposed to come back. You left for stress, correct? You felt that you were stressing out? Okay, well here I want you to just take this in for a moment: as of what I've seen just minutes ago, you boys have 22.9M followers on Twitter, and probably more. So think of this: you just sent 22.9+ million people into stress mode. We are FREAKING out. We don't know what to do anymore. So not only are you stressed out now, but now we are too. And you're really only going to stress more because, buddy, you're about to get hit with 22.9+ million people's comments about you leaving this band.

Second of all, you posted a statement saying, and I quote, "I am leaving because I want to be a normal 22-year-old who is able to relax and have some private time out of the spotlight." I'm sorry Zayn, but you joined the biggest boyband in the world. You are not going to be normal. You are not going to have some private time. You are Zayn Malik. One of the biggest heart throbs to millions of teenage girls everywhere. You had the chance to be normal back when you were 16. You can't just quit a band and expect to be normal, it just doesn't work like that. I'm sorry but if you think you're going to be normal and private, you must be thinking stupid.

Third of all, I love you. I do. I have loved you and the other four boys for the past three years of my life. I dedicated every single second into waking up so I could see your tweets; so I hear your voice when I'm walking home from school; so I could watch your videos countless times when I really should have been doing homework. You have saved LIVES Zayn Malik. You have made girls feel like there is something to hold on too. You have made me feel like I could achieve my goals and live them forever. What kind of role model are you for going out and giving up? Because of stress? I, and many other people, stress all the time over everything! Over life, over school, over friends, over jobs! Does that mean we just give up and quit? No.

I respect you Zayn. I love you Zayn. And I think you need to smarten up. I don't understand that this feeling you have is right and that this is what you need to do. I'm going to continue loving and caring for the boys. But I refuse to call them One Direction. I will not. And I don't know if you're seeing this from a fans perspective but I think you should really take that into a little bit more consideration. I don't hate you Zayn. I'm not a hater. But I'm not particularly happy with you right now either.

- 1/22.9M+
#AlwaysInOurHeartsZaynMalik

I want your guys opinions on this too. I don't hate Zayn and I'm not going to stop supporting the boys, but this is just what I'm feeling about this all and I thought it was relevant to post it on here with all you guys rather than on Twitter where all my school friends can see.

As of for my writing, I will continue including Zayn into the books whether he's apart of the band or not. Even in like a couple years, after this all blows over, I will still always include him somehow. I'm not giving up on One Direction. I will always love the five boys that lived of 2010-2015. I will always love the five boys after today. I'm just not calling them One Direction anymore. I don't know if that made sense or not.

Please, don't start like harassing me saying how I'm being unsupportive. I'm being supportive of his stress, I'm just not being supportive of him leaving. I hope all goes well for you, Zayn Malik. Good luck.

Lilli~