Sharing a Flat with Benedict.

She is forgiven, Chapter 15

All I could do was fall to the floor in front of my door way at the sight of my decesed mother. " Hello sweeteheart" she cooed as she entered my home and the door slowly shut behind her. she hasnt called me sweetheart in years and to hear her say it was very foreign to me.

She bent down and by insticted I flinched. Her hand froze and I heard her sob quitely. I opened my eyes slowly and looked up at her. She looked so broken and I didnt understand at all, this can not be my mother...

"My sweetheart, I treated you so badly while I was alive and I never got the chance to tell you how sorry I was. I can never express to you how deeply ashamed of what I have done to you. My only child and I treated you like trash over the years."

I froze and remained silent, my heart felt like a huge weight was lifted off of me, I hesidently crawled to her and wrapped my arms around her in a comforting hug. She graped me tightly around my shoulders and we both cried. I could feel her fadding in my arms until there way nothing but her scent and light warmth that surrounded me. " Sable I am sorry for what I did to you, continue to make your dream come true. Ill be with you all the way my little girl..."

Her voice fadded and I bolted awake from the couch and landed on my side. Tears still slid down my face when Nina entered the flat.

"Sable I was thinking pink seem...Oh God! Are you alright?!" she yelped as she rushed over to me and rolled me over.

I just pulled her into a hug and sobbed my heart out. She hugged me back still confused on what was going on.

A little while later when I calmed down enough to tell her about my dream, Nina smiled at me, " she came back just to apologize to you Sab, I find that something to be happy about" she said as I looked down at my cigarette. I gave a slight nod and looked up at her, " Its possible and you know, I feel after all this time and with this dream I can finally forgive her. Believe it or not it was something I wanted to do for a while but never felt the courage to do so.," I said with a sigh.

Nina patted my back, " Well I am glad your able to do so Sab, so about the pink...I think it might be just a bit much" she said with a small chuckle that was infectiuos.

"What about a soft cream white for the dress and mix in Tom and yours favorite colors?" I suggested as she grimpsed at me, " I dont know about that it would seriously look like I was marrying Loki"

I started laughing at the thought when the door opened. I looked over my shoulder to see Ben walk inside. " Hello love" he said sweetly as he kissed my lips gently. I have found happiness, I have forgiven my mother but I still have a deep hate for my father after the stunt he pulled earlier this month. I still cant believe he threatend me...

Ben looked over my shoulder at the dresses and gave a slight imput. " What about that soft cream one here," he said as Nina looked at it and smiled, " I love it" she said as Ben chuckled, " Maybe I shoudl get into the wedding busniess love " he said with a laugh. I smiled at the joke but my mind was else where...

"Love?" he asked as he patted my shoulder to get my attention. I shook my head and looked up at him, " yes hun?" I said quickly as he stared at me for a moment. " You ok?"

I sighed and nodded, " Ill be ok just had a strange dream thats all. I have been feeling really funny the last couple of days. None of my cooking seems to taste right" I said off handedly and I heard Nina gasp.

Both Ben and I looked at her for a moment, " You ok over there?" I asked as she clapped her hands, "Sable have you been late recently?"

I froze and so did Ben, I cant remember the last time I took my birth control and we really hadnt been using protection...

I looked up at Ben who was putting his coat on and rushing out the door, " Ill be back with a test in five minutes!" he said as the door slammed and all I could do was sit there in thought.

20 minutes later:

Ben and Nina sat in the living room while I sat on the bath tub and waited for the timer to go off. My mind raced with the thought of having a baby, I could possibly play from home and record it for the band, but what about tours if we got them? I could play local gigs if needed but I doubt Benedict would let me do that. I need to be a mother first and a guitar player second..Oh God what am I going to do? I thought as the timer dinged and I took a deep breath and looked at the test stick....

POSITIVE...

I read and I felt my heart swoon! I was going to be a mommy! I let out a shriek and both Nina and Ben rushed up the stairs in panic.

"Darling?! Are you alright?!" Ben asked as he opened the door and I flung myself at him with a huge hug.

He was startled, " What did it say?" he asked as tears flowed down my cheeks, " I'm preagnat Ben" I said. Now I didnt think about how he would feel about this until he snatched me up and spun me around with a deep laugh.

The front door opened and Jasper and Matt entered the flat. Once they heard the noise up staris they rushed to see what all the comotion was about.

"What in the hell is going on?" Matt asked as he was looking at Ben holding me close and Nina jumping for joy.

"What did we miss?" Jasper asked as I looked at him with a smile and his face turned up into a grin. "No.." I nodded with a huge smile. He jumped for joy and snatched me out of Ben's arms for a big hug. " Someone please tell me what the heck is going on?!" Matt groaned.

" Honey! Your going to be an uncle and I am going to be an aunt. Sable is preagnat!" Jasper said as he patted my belly gently. Matt just stood there for a moment and smiled.

" Couldnt keep your swimmers to your self huh Ben?" he said with a smirk and Ben's face flushed pink.

Everyone was hugging me and placing hands on my flat belly, I will put my music career on hold for now. I need to think about Mine and Ben's child that was growing inside of me.

I couldnt be happier right now...

In a jail not to far from downtown London:

" Here you are sir, all your clothes and remaining cash you had" said the officer as he placed the itmes through the half window to a man with a crew cut and stubbled chin. " Thank you sir" the man said as he placed the items in a bag and walked out the front doors.

" Now then Sable, we need to finsh that chat, and this time no intruptions" he said as he hailed a taxi wiht a devilish smirk on his face...