Sharing a Flat with Benedict.

At the bar and Karokee night, Chapter 11

Sable and Jasper sat in a booth across from the dance floor. Both were sipping on a pint, talking about everything back home.They had been at the bar for a good couple of hours when Jasper spoke about Sables mother's death.

"I am sorry you had to find out about your mother that way Sab, I really am" he said as he took a gulp. She sighed and looked up at him. "Can I be honest with you Jas?" he looked at her, "Of course hun!"

" I am a little sad she had died, When I was little we did have nice moments together, though they were few and far between. She treated me like she did want me" she whispered. She quickly wiped the tears away but for some reason they just kept coming. "Wasnt I good enough?" she whimpered and Jasper wrapped his arms around her tight. "You are wonderful sweetie, not matter what she said to you or what your father said. Benedict, Matt and I love you very much."

She looked up at Jasper and gave a small nod. "You better clean up, dont you go on next?" Jasper asked. She nodded quickly and cleaned up her face. "There hun, no swears anywhere" Jasper said as he ruffled her hair a bit.

"I still cant believe your getting me up there to sing!" she said as she began to fidget in her seat. "You've played guitar in front of a packed house back home and you've played here in London on and off, whats the deal? You have an amazing voice. Just ingnore the crowd and do your song" Jasper said. She heard her name being called and she took a deep breath and walked to the stage. Sable didnt know that Jasper sent a quick text to Ben and Matt to come and the other two men managed to get in when she wasnt looking

A spot light shone on her, she sighed and opened her mouth to sing:

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

 The crowd actually roared with prasie and applause for Sable's voice. She sounded like an angel. She gave a watery smile and said thank you before she fast walked off the stage. Ben Matt and Jas were up and running to the back stage. Once they found her, she was on a small couch, tears running down her face. Benedict was the first to reach her. Wrapping his strong arms around her and letting her cry into his chest.

His scent comforted her, "Shhh, love its ok to cry, no one will judge you" he whispered into her ear.

After years of being told dont cry, she clung to his neck and let the tears flow.... (Poor Sable...:(..)

Benedict carried her to there bed, she had fallen asleep in the car on there way home. He placed her on the bed and began to undress her. He left her in her t shirt and panties. He kissed her forehead and placed there blankets over her body. He walked out the door and shut it behind him.

"She is out cold till morning I suppose" Benedict said as he plopped himself on the couch for a few moments. " I'm going out for a smoke Ben, you wanna join me?" Matt asked as he held up his pack of Camels. "That sounds fucking amazing right now" Ben said as he grabbed his own pack and followed Matt outside. Jasper called out to both of them saying he was going to bed. Matt nodded and let his lover go to sleep.

Benedict lit up his cigarette and took a deep drag off of it. " I had no idea she had such a lovely singing voice" Ben said as he took a seat in the patio chair, Matt follwed close behind and took the seat across from Ben. " She did a lot of after school stuff, just so she could stay out of that hell hole" Matt said as he lit his cigarette.

"Singing, dance...drama.." Matt said looking at Ben with a smirk, " Thats how we met, I was scared of my own father. I knew I was gay at an early age but I hid it becuase my father threatend to hurt me. I kept it locked away from many years and when I met Sable, she boosted me up and I told my parents I was gay. My mother didnt care, my father left and I havent seen him since."

"She was my rock for many years after that till I met Jasper, you can say we became the three amgios" Matt said laughing. Ben smiled, "She is a lovely woman, when I first met her, she acted so shy and sweet. She had nothing basically and I took her to get furniture for her room at the time. She has been here for 7 months, she makes me happier than I have ever been before" Ben finished. He took another drag and let the smoke leave his mouth. He glanced up at the moon that shone bright.

Benedict and Matt made there way inside the house, made sure every door and window was locked and went to there bedrooms. "Stay as long as you like Matt, if he is after her he will be after you two as well since you know where she is at" Ben said as Matt nodded, "Thank you Ben, have a good night."

"You do the same" Ben said as he closed the bedroom door and walked into the bathroom to brush his teeth and what not. He came into there room agian and stripped him self down to his boxer briefs and crawled into bed with her.

She rolled over and buried her face into his chest and nuzzled closer. He smiled softly and wrapped his arms around her, " I am here love, nothing will happen to you, not while I am around. I love you Sable, so very much" he whispered and by the glow of the moon through the curtians Benedict swore she smiled in her sleep.