Dear Phi

My Idol

Beam POV

P'Forth is my next door neighbor, 12 years my senior, and the godson of my father. He practically grew up in our house so I see him as my real big brother. He's the youngest among eight siblings and his parents were advanced in age which made them unable to give ample attention to him. He's on the naughty side and was involved in a number of scandals but was always saved by my father.

This is the reason why he looks up to my father as his parental figure and seems to be the only one who can control his rowdiness. In turn, P'Forth's parents just let him frequently stay at our place since it wad just next door. There were times that he'll spend the night with us and he'll be instructed by daddy to sleep in my room.

I was an only child and was always happy whenever P'Forth was around. He plays with me even though he was maturing already. Perhaps because he was the youngest son, that he views me as his younger brother. Well, he in-turn acted as my big brother and taught me a lot of things as only big brothers can.

He would help me with my school projects. He would accompany me to the town proper to buy supplies or hangout. He would protect me whenever I made enemies. I would always brag about him with my friends and playmates. He was my idol. I wanted to be like him.

P'Forth is a handsome dude. It's sounds cliche, but he can be perfectly described as tall, dark, and handsome. Even though he was only 19 at that time, he had a buffed physique because he's to do part time work that required heavy lifting. He's got a nice posture and great sense of style. No wonder girls swoon over him.

I was 7 years old and I always emulate him. There was even a time that I caught him smoking. "Shhhhhh... Don't tell anyone about this," he said. Of course, I had no plans on ratting him out. Actually, when he wasn't looking, I tried smoking his cigarette. But I ended up coughing. When he caught me red-handed, he just laughed and teased me.

I always want to be around P'Forth. But of course, he can't always bring me whenever he hangs out with his friends. "It's only for grown ups," he would always tell me. When that happens, I'd sulk but when P'Forth returns to our house and we'd play, I would be all good again. All because I was with my beloved P'Forth again.

xoxo

One day in school, there was a talk about circumcision. Some of my friends bragged that they were not supot anymore and they masturbate daily. I just listened to them quietly because I had no idea what they were talking about.

T/N: Supot is the local term we use to refer to an uncircumcized man. So can you imagine how much Filipinos laughed when we learned of the name of the male Principal in The Gifted. Hahaha! There was even a petition to use this original name when The Gifted Graduation started in the local broadcast. Hahahha!

When I got home, I saw P'Forth watching TV in my room so I quickly asked him, "P'Forth, what is circumcision? What is supot? My friends in school called me supot."

P'Forth chuckled. "N'Beam, circumcision is done as a right of passage from a boy to a man. Don't worry, you're just 7 years old, you'll get one when you turn twelve. Tell me if you get teased again as supot, I'll handle it."

T/N: As Forth said, in PH circumcision does not have its religious significance anymore. It just became a way of life and a rite of passage for pubescent boys.

I was amused and followed with another question, "Phi, how about masturbate? My friends also told me that they do that a lot."

P'Forth suddenly froze. "Huh? Errr... that's what grown men do."

I was confused. "But, my classmates say they do it. Aren't they kids just like I am? How can it be? Can I also do it?"

P'Forth answered me with a smile. "Yes, you can... It can actually help when the time comes for your circumcision so the foreskin won't stick too much to the head."

I became even more confused. "Head?", I said as I scratch my head. "I want to know so I can have an easy circumcision too."

He grinned and had me sit down on the bed before he began explaining in a soft voice as if he didn't anyone to overhear us. Once he was done with the explanation, I was speechless. I also felt some unknown sensation in my tummy. Like it's getting warm. Some tingling also occurred on my back. I was both anxious and excited at the same time.

"Playing with the peepee? Everyone is doing it? P'Forth too?" I thought silently.

I imagined P'Forth playing with himself.
I had a desire to see it with my own eyes.
I felt my dick slowly harden.

"How about you, phi? Do you do that too?" I asked.

"Of course. I'm a grown up." He answered in between chuckles.

"C-Can you teach me how? C-Can you show me how it's done?" I asked reluctantly. I was half-expecting for him to show me how he plays with himself. I realized that what I asked of him eas forbidden and naughty.

My excitement intensified. Will P'Forth really show me? I want to see it up close.

P'Forth was frozen again. His face got all serious as if weighing on his options for his next move.

My heart raced. P'Forth might get angry with me so I followed it up with this little quip, "You said, it will make my circumcision easier so I really want to know."

P'Forth flashed his gummy smile again. "Lock the door."

My chest pounded again. The warmth and the sensation intensified once more. Shit! P'Forth will show me! I can finally see his peepee! I can watch him play with himself! I was so excited I couldn't walk properly towards the door.

"Come, I'll show you." He had me sit on the bed again beside him. "Can I see yours?", he said before pulling down my shorts and briefs.

My peepee peeked out. But I was shocked when he suddenly held the tip of the foreskin and pulled it down. It's a bit painful. But I was surprised again with what I saw. A head came out of my peepee. I was surprised that it looked that way underneath the foreskin. It's peculiar, like a mushroom. Is this how it will look like once I get circumcized? Does P'Forth's look the same? I want to see...

P'Forth was still holding my foreskin. The sensation that I felt ran on overdrive. My peepee began to slowly harden. I got embarassed. I was checking if he was angry but he didn't mind it. "Just hold on it tightly and move your hand up and down to pull down the foreskin and the head pops out."

When he let go, the foreskin returned to covering my head. Then, he pulled up my shorts. "Don't do it frequently." He added with a laugh.

A mixture of shame and excitement filled me up. I thought I will be able to see P'Forth's peepee. I thought I could watch him play with himself. But, he held on mine! It was just a moment, but he did touch me!

I snapped out of my triumphant musics when I heard someone calling from the kitchen. It was my mother. Dinner time.

"Yes! We'll go down soon!" P'Forth answered the call before looking back at me. "Now, you know how to do it. But don't do it frequently." He reiterated.

He opened the door and whispered, "Also, don't tell your mother that I taught you that. She'll think you're still young. Women don't understand things like this. I might get scolded. They'll just get surprised that you'll suddenly shoot up."

T/N: There's an old wives tale that it's circumcision that is causing the growth spurt among young men. But we all know that's not true. Hehe! But it's my first time to hear that masturbation can also cause this growth spurt.

I nodded.

"Let's go get some dinner."