Dear Phi

Beer Twosome

Beam POV

My hand trembled while I slowly opened the door. I confirmed it as soon as our wooden door was ajar. It was really P'Forth who was standing outside of our gate. He looked as dreamy as ever. Tall, dark, and handsome.  But his chest and arms looked even bigger than before. Personally, I think he looked like a model standing out there on the street. He was like a celebrity even though he's just wearing a plain jeans and white shirt.

Few seconds had passed but I still couldn't believe that he was there in the flesh. He was standing there while flashing his gummy smile. Ten years had passed but the man of my dreams finally came back to me.

"P-P'Forth?" I stuttered in saying his name while I walked towards the gate. I really wanted to give him a big hug but I restrained myself. Instead, I just offered my hand for a shake. 

P'Forth shook it then suddenly pulled me close before wrapping his arms around me. "Beam! How are you? You've grown so much!"

"I-I'm g-good. How bout you?" I answered as I returned his embrace.

"I'm good. Same same." I felt the happiness in the tone of his voice and in his chest and arms that surrounded me. My heart raced and smiled at the hands of the man I love. Perhaps, it was my first true smile after such a long time. 

We went inside our house as he kept on speaking. "You've grown big Beam. The last time I saw you, you were just as tall as my chest!

I froze. I didn't want him to dig up what happened in the last time we met.

"Now you're over my shoulder! Hahaha! You'll probably grow taller than me. Also, you're not the double chin I used to remember. You're thin as a stick. Are you eating alright? But your charms never diminished. You're still that handsome kid." He said before pinching my right cheek then chortling.

"Hehe! Of course! Because I idolize you phi!" I replied proudly. For some reason, it was natural for me to smile in front of P'Forth as if all those smiles and laughter that I kept inside came bursting out in his presence. It felt overflowing happiness. All my fears and sadness dissipated because I saw my beloved phi again.

Because everything happened so fast, I wasn't able to hide the astray filled with cigarette butts. 

"You smoke? That's unusual." He pointed out.

"Unusual? I just idolize you P'Forth that's why I emulated you." I rebutted. "You want some beer, phi?"

"Sure!" I handed him a can. "Do you have lots of booze there, Beam? I'll buy some from the store. I really planned to drink with Khun Po tonight. I forgot that I can do it with you too."

"I just have a few cans left in the fridge. My parents have no idea that I smoke nor drink booze. They're not here. They went to my uncle's for their town fiesta. They'll be back the day after tomorrow."

P'Forth laughed. "You really come after me. Haha!" He said then winked. "Okay, I'll just buy some more. Give me a stick, Beam. Do you have extra slippers? I want to rest my feet. I've been wearing shoes all day. "

I handed P'Forth my spare slippers. When he finished changing to something more comfortable, he went out to buy our drinks. He came back with a whole case of beer. We first finished my beer-in-cans while we let the bottled ones chill in the fridge. 

Smokes. Boozes. Stories.

As the night got deeper, the more I got drank, the more stories we exchanged, and the louder our laughter became. It was probably the happiest day in a span of ten years. The day I finally reunited with P'Forth. 

Our dynamics were that of phi and nong before, now we're more like buddies. I was almost as tall as my phi. I was finally getting closer to what he was and the thought made me smile. I have no one else I want to be like than my P'Forth. The phi that I most love.