Dear Phi

Curious Cat

Beam POV

Ever since P'Forth taught me how to masturbate, I've been playing with myself frequently. In my room, in the bathroom, anywhere that I can be alone. Phi said, I shouldn't do it that much the memory of how he taught me replays in my mind whenever I do it. How he held my peepee, how he pulled by the foreskin, and how my bellshaped head peaked from it. Even though he held it for just a moment, the heat and the sensation reccurs.

Sometimes I imagine that phi held my peepee longer and that his hand was the one who pumped it up and down. The warmth in my stomach and the sensation in my groin intensified whenever I picture his gummy smiling face and manly physique.

Other times, I imagine P'Forth while he's playing with himself in front of me, lying down on the bed naked. His chest and stomach exposed for me to admire and his chiselled arms moving up and down pumping his ginormous cock while smiling at me. At these times that I feel the infernal sensation crawling from my stomach to my testicles, exiting my little Beamie in an explosion, I always stop moving. There were even times that a small amount of white stuff came out on top of the head. When it first occurred, I got scared.

I asked P'Forth about it and he just laughed at me. "Haha! It's cum and it's a natural thing." My fear dissipated and my little play-with-myself time increased.

I always feel that flash of warmth whenever I was alone with my P'Forth. Watching TV, going to town, or playing video games, I always keep imagining and hoping that I may be able: to have him hold my peepee; to see him without any clothes on; or to watch him play with himself in front of me.

I always stare him whenever he removes his shirt when it's hot. I look at the curves of his chest muscles and his small reddish nipples. I noticed his wavy stomach with a trail of cathairs from his navel leading to the inside of his shorts. Just with the sight of his peeking undies, my throat almost run dry. I also deflect my gaze whenever he notices I was staring.

When P'Forth bathes in our house, I always wait for him to get out of the shower with only a towel on. Then, I'll rush to my room, intent of watching him get dressed but he always locks it and comes out already dressed.

T/N: I may or may not have done this as a child. Hehe!

When P'Forth spends the night, we sleep on my bed and I get to closely look at his body. I thought about taking a peek at his cock once he's asleep but I don't go throught with it at the fear of him waking up and getting angry with me. Instead, I would just hug him tightly and place my leg of his.

T/N: We have a local word for placing your leg over someone else's leg when sleeping. It's called dantay. It's basically leg-hugging.

I usually hug him when sleeping and he hugs me back. But this time, it has a different meaning for me. That feverish sensation won't disappear.

One time, I saw him get inside the bathroom to pee. I knocked on the door and bravely asked, "Phi, can I pee with you?"

He opened the door and said, "You go first."

I felt really dismayed for the lost chance. "I just wanted to see it for a bit," I mumbled.

"What?" He heard me.

"Nothing!" I yelled and ran out crying, leaving him dumbstruck.

I don't know if P'Forth noticed the changes in my behavior. He didn't say anything but I was afraid he'd know about it. I don't want him to learn about what I've been thinking about him. He might get angry and leave me.

But I just can't help myself. As time goes by, the more my feelings for him intensified.

I noticed that he stayed less frequently in our house lately. My anxiety kicked in. Maybe he already learned about my dirty thoughts about him which made him uncomfortable in staying at our house. He might be pissed at me and doesn't want to be near me.

When P'Forth was gone for a whole week, I got even more anxious. Though I wanted to ask my father about it, but my nerves got the best me. Besides, I was afraid that P'Forth might tell him about my small naughty antics.

I wondered on how he knew. Maybe because he would always catch me staring at him. Maybe I was sleeptalking at night. Maybe he just plain read my mind. I don't know!

It was a such mess that I became listless after P'Forth's two-week absence. I was lethargic and absentminded in school. I only had P'Forth in my mind.

When I got home, I was surprised and happy to see P'Forth sitting on my bed and watching TV. I ran to him without any second thought. "P'Forth!" I exclaimed and embraced him.

Phi just laughed and returned my hug then tossled my hair.

"Are you angry at me, phi?" I asked. "Why have you not gone back here for so long?"

"Huh? Why would I be angry at you?" P'Forth replied with a smile. "We went on vacation to our home province. My mother's uncle died and she needed to arrange something with my grandfather's estate so we stayed there for teo weeks. I have high marks in school so I was allowed a leave of absence. I really made it a point to do good so I can join in that vacation which explain my long absence. Why? You missed me didn't you, nong?"

When I heard what he said my chest almost exploded in glee. P'Forth doesn't hate me! He's not angry at me!

"Hey! Settle down N'Beam. I can't breathe, hahah!" It was only then that I noticed that I was clinging to him tightly.

We talked for a while. He told me everything they did in their province. He met a lot of people and the food were all spicy. He also saw a lot of beautiful sceneries. I was staring intently at him as he happily narrated his stories. Gosh, he's really so handsome!

When phi ran out of stories, we just silently watched TV. I was seated on his right side while he had his arm around my nape. Because P'Forth was tall, I need to look up to him so I could see his handsome face. Whenever he notice that I was looking at him, he'll return my gaze and smile at me. I, of course, smile back. I was happy and contented that I was with my beloved P'Forth again.

Moments later, P'Forth took of his shirt. "It's hot ain't it nong?"

The infernal sensation returned to my stomach and groin. P'Forth anchored his arm around me again, shirtless, with only denim shorts on. He smelled so good. Manly good. I breathe in deeply. For some reason, I felt my knees shaking, my lips turned dry, and my peepee became hard. I couldn't even comprehend what was happening on the TV. I was just staring at P'Forth's naked torso. I had the urge to caress it.

"Beam, can you scratch my back?" P'Forth suddenly asked. Though, I was a bit startled with his request. I gently reached his back from my seat.

"A little higher to the left... There... There..." he then raised his hand and started scratching the left side of his navel.

"Let me do that for you, P'Forth."

"Okay." He confirmed before returning his attention to the TV.

I reached his left part from the front. I scratched it while anchoring my arms on his stomach. My scratches slowly lost its intention as it turned into caresses. My hand slowly moved from his left side until I was already caressing his stomach.

I looked at him. He was still focused in the TV and let me do as I pleased. I had no idea what I was feeling. My knees shook even more, I turned even more feverish, and my peepee hardened like I never felt it harden before.

While I was caressing P'Forth's stomach, I noticed the thin trail of hairs starting from his navel going down inside his denim shorts. My hands moved to it and played with the thin strands. They were soft and quite a delight to play with.

The desire to know where that hair trail leads came over me. I courageously held the button of P'Forth's denim shorts and undid it. I immediately saw the waistband of his briefs.

What does P'Forth's briefs look like? I was locked in to discover that fact. There was only one line echoing in my mind...

"I want to see it."