Dear Phi

Most Favorite Person

Beam POV

So he still remembers, huh? I stopped on my tracks and turned around to look at him. P'Forth was grinning while looking at me. 

"Remember what?" I whispered feigning ignorance despite being flustered. Not because of the alcohol but by extreme shame. But that peculiar feeling that stemmed from my back started growing. I really didn't want to talk about it but I was getting aroused ever minute that I stood there. 

"You don't remember?" He asked back while still grinning. "You know... The time when you blew my cock."

FUCK!!! He really do remember!!!

I lowered my gaze, unable to speak. I think my silence was enough to say that I do know what he was talking about. Why was he asking about me about it? What's the point of reminding me about that indiscretion?

It took me a while to answer. "So you still remember all about it," I said softly.

"Of course! Why would I forget it?" He answered, still with that teasing grin. Was he mocking me?

"S-sorry P-P'F-Forth..." My voice shook. "I-I d-didn't m-mean t-to... I-I j-just w-wanted... S-Sorry..." I was incoherent as my tears just fell down.  I was so embarrassed. What I did was so shameful to my own big brother-figure.

"Oh hey, why are you crying?" P'Forth touched my cheek and wiped my tears with his finger.

I looked at him and he gave me one of his gummy smiles. Then, he pet my hair. His gestures somehow gave me relief. "Sorry phi. I am embarrassed. Is it the reason why you're angry at me?"

"Hahahaha!" Phi laughed out loud. "I guess I was a bit surprised but not upset. You do know that I won't ever get angry at you right? You're my most favorite person, I love you so much."

I was shocked with what he said and looked at him intently. I noticed that his face was red too. And then his words suddenly dropped into my senses. Did I hear him right? He loves me? Maybe it's just the alcohol talking.

"You're drunk P'Forth." I told him in jest because I still couldn't believe what I just heard. 

"No, nong. I'm not drunk. I still know what I am saying. I guess I wasn't vocal about it. But I'm telling you right now, that of all the people in our neighborhood, you're the one I love the most. I don't know why but you looked so cute when you were a kid. That's why no matter what you ask, I make sure to give them to you. Hehe!" He was looking at the ceiling while smiling as if reminiscing some from the past. "You were so innocent and curious. You wanted to know about everything. Haha!"

"So..." He shifted on his seat. "...for the past 10 years, you thought that I was angry at you? That explains why you didn't communicate with me all these years. Don't worry Beam, I'm not mad. I love you so much that no matter what you do, it'll be okay with me. Even our little naughty moment. I liked it anyway."

My chest throbbed hard. It was my first time to hear P'Forth say those words; that he loves me. It was my first time to hear his thoughts about what happened between us. 

"At first, I thought nothing of it." He continued speaking, "But I got confused when you started pulling down my zipper."

Scorching heat flowed throughout my body as P'Forth himself narrated what happened that night. I was going hard every second.

"I honestly blanked out for a short while. Next thing I knew you were pulling down my briefs already and I was hard as hell at that time. It was my first time to be stripped like that what you did. I lost it when you held my cock. It was also my first time that I was held by another person. It was... ticklish. It was... arousing."